wpainterw

The answer to all of these questions for me has been "yes". I am happier, healthier, perhaps a little sad at what happened in earlier days, yet wiser. At least I have been told that wisdom comes from suffering and I have suffered and those who have depended on me have suffered. Now 26 years have passed. I have no craving for alcohol. I only crave forgiveness, understanding- forgiveness of myself and by others. In what time remains of me I hope to help in any way I can, but, in the remains of the day, I am lonely and saddened by what might have been.

W.

MelindaFlowers

I was listening to my favorite radio show (Dr. L) a few days before I quit and I heard two lines that really stuck with me.

Caller: "I don't know how to be happy in life without drugs or alcohol."
Dr. L: "But you're not happy with drugs and alcohol in your life."

It sounds pretty simple but I made something in my brain go "click."

Croissant

Windancer, the other thing is, this happiness doesn't happen magically. You will probably go through a process of "mourning" alcohol - after all, it's been a big part of your life.

You've been drinking for a while, so it will take time. Expect that.

Not sure, if this helps, but reading how others felt about their relationship with alcohol helped.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/..._________.html

Windancer

Yes, Croisant, I expect the mourning. The parties, the good times....but I have to remember the pain, danger, drama and crap FAR FAR outweighs any of the good times I may have had.

SnoozyQ

It is definitely 100% better . Getting sober is possible .

Drinking only gave me misery and regrets .

Xx