Sober Date
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Sober Date
Yes, that's right. Last night I hung out with a mate of mine and it turned into a bit of a date. We hung out and talked for 4 hours and vaguely made goo-goo eyes at each other. When he left, I gave him a hug and licked his neck. That was ok.
I'm not sure how long it's been since I've done anything vaguely approaching sexual without being drunk/high/both/all of the above. Last night, I just felt so incredibly young. I got really nervous and unsure of myself. Given that my previous strategy in my sex life was getting drunk and falling on top of someone, this complete restraint is a bit weird. Not bad, just strange.
I know there's probably a bunch of a rules about intimacy and abstention, but I'm not really into rules unless I make them myself. I'm the kind of person who doesn't feel good about not putting (most of!) the internal stuff out there. I'm a bit wary, sure but I do feel really good about this guy. He's just really solid. Plus he's a brick layer :=]
I need to take this really slowly and tread very carefully, I reckon. It's a whole new kind of growing up I think, one where I'm actually present. That's good. I just wish I didn't feel 16 years old!
Any thoughts would be most appreciated :=]
I'm not sure how long it's been since I've done anything vaguely approaching sexual without being drunk/high/both/all of the above. Last night, I just felt so incredibly young. I got really nervous and unsure of myself. Given that my previous strategy in my sex life was getting drunk and falling on top of someone, this complete restraint is a bit weird. Not bad, just strange.
I know there's probably a bunch of a rules about intimacy and abstention, but I'm not really into rules unless I make them myself. I'm the kind of person who doesn't feel good about not putting (most of!) the internal stuff out there. I'm a bit wary, sure but I do feel really good about this guy. He's just really solid. Plus he's a brick layer :=]
I need to take this really slowly and tread very carefully, I reckon. It's a whole new kind of growing up I think, one where I'm actually present. That's good. I just wish I didn't feel 16 years old!
Any thoughts would be most appreciated :=]
Hi andyroo
I know it can all get a bit giddy but yeah - go slow.
I'd drunk for so long, I had no idea who sober me was or what that sober person wanted when I quit.
I changed almost daily in my first three months.
When you add to that the stresses and strains of a new relationship (or even just a casual hook up) it makes sense to cool your heels - or at least it makes sense to me
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I know it can all get a bit giddy but yeah - go slow.
I'd drunk for so long, I had no idea who sober me was or what that sober person wanted when I quit.
I changed almost daily in my first three months.
When you add to that the stresses and strains of a new relationship (or even just a casual hook up) it makes sense to cool your heels - or at least it makes sense to me
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Thank you Dee- you were so quick AND wise :=]
I do need to take it really slowly. There's a sort of fastness with me that's a big part of my addiction. I want to do everything fast, get to the end, win the prize, consume more than anyone else- it's kind of pathetic when I spell it out. It's totally characteristic of my drinking strategy and probably personal relationships too.
I really try to focus on the little steps. I guess I need to focus on not just doing them, but living them. Fast bad, slow good :=] Thanks.
I do need to take it really slowly. There's a sort of fastness with me that's a big part of my addiction. I want to do everything fast, get to the end, win the prize, consume more than anyone else- it's kind of pathetic when I spell it out. It's totally characteristic of my drinking strategy and probably personal relationships too.
I really try to focus on the little steps. I guess I need to focus on not just doing them, but living them. Fast bad, slow good :=] Thanks.
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Thanks Croissant- too bloody true. And it is totally tied up with alcoholism for me- I (me, me, me) want it now and all of it! I'm beginning to think it's a mindset that extends way beyond drinking. Patience and humility are things I really need to work on.
That sounds like a great date to me. When I quit the only thing that changed was everything.
Sober date or sex? I didn't know how to do it! Now, it's so cool. Little bit hard to find a sober partner, but that's alright. I'm the opposite of you, I take things slow.
Totally opposite of my manic drinking days.
Best to you and enjoy your sober self : )
Sober date or sex? I didn't know how to do it! Now, it's so cool. Little bit hard to find a sober partner, but that's alright. I'm the opposite of you, I take things slow.
Totally opposite of my manic drinking days.
Best to you and enjoy your sober self : )
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