Almost had 6 months sober until last nite
Almost had 6 months sober until last nite
I was doing great with sobriety but I decided to drink last nite. I had been having drinking dreams for awhile but I didn't think it would lead to having such a strong craving yesterday. I was feeling lost and worried because my daughter is moving out and my Dad is in poor health. Just felt alone and hurt. Called in sick today. I may call a total stranger from a list of numbers I got at AA. I don't have friends just spend all my time with family. And they won't always be here. Rambling now. This post is a caution. An example of how you have to take care of yourself and watch out for triggers. Going back to sobriety. I am not defeated. I don't like drinking and waking up feeling depressed.
I had almost 6 months and drank again....
But in my case, rather than a one-time slip, I consciously decided after almost 6 months that I was OK to go back to drinking as long as I was aware and drank 'responsibly' and made sure things were in balance when I was drinking and I wasn't drinking for "the wrong reasons".
Which actually seemed to "work".
For a little while.
So, you slipped - but you've done the right thing to talk about it and to get it off your chest and now you have a choice to get right back on your path of sobriety or to let this take you back to the place you know you really don't want to go again.
I'm glad to see your choice is to get back on track!
But in my case, rather than a one-time slip, I consciously decided after almost 6 months that I was OK to go back to drinking as long as I was aware and drank 'responsibly' and made sure things were in balance when I was drinking and I wasn't drinking for "the wrong reasons".
Which actually seemed to "work".
For a little while.
So, you slipped - but you've done the right thing to talk about it and to get it off your chest and now you have a choice to get right back on your path of sobriety or to let this take you back to the place you know you really don't want to go again.
I'm glad to see your choice is to get back on track!
I had almost 6 months and drank again....
But in my case, rather than a one-time slip, I consciously decided after almost 6 months that I was OK to go back to drinking as long as I was aware and drank 'responsibly' and made sure things were in balance when I was drinking and I wasn't drinking for "the wrong reasons".
Which actually seemed to "work".
For a little while.
So, you slipped - but you've done the right thing to talk about it and to get it off your chest and now you have a choice to get right back on your path of sobriety or to let this take you back to the place you know you really don't want to go again.
I'm glad to see your choice is to get back on track!
But in my case, rather than a one-time slip, I consciously decided after almost 6 months that I was OK to go back to drinking as long as I was aware and drank 'responsibly' and made sure things were in balance when I was drinking and I wasn't drinking for "the wrong reasons".
Which actually seemed to "work".
For a little while.
So, you slipped - but you've done the right thing to talk about it and to get it off your chest and now you have a choice to get right back on your path of sobriety or to let this take you back to the place you know you really don't want to go again.
I'm glad to see your choice is to get back on track!
I've heard this story a lot.. and have said it a lot too. It works... for a little while. But of course, eventually it gets worse than before and keeps snowballing. I think alcoholism permanently changes something in ourselves.. and if we pass a certain stage, it's like the boats behind us are burnt.. We can't go back!
Good job realizing you need to change something. I know I used that phone list a couple times and called people when I needed to be talked down or drink.
I would love it if I got a call from a total stranger who got my number from AA.
Looking forward...
I would love it if I got a call from a total stranger who got my number from AA.
Looking forward...
As to yesterday - it is past. Today is a new day, choose differently and your tomorrow will start differently than today did. Learn the lesson and move on.
Thank you all so much for your support. And thank you for congratulating me on 6 months. I am proud of my sober time. Now I just want to sweat this poison out of my body. I really tied one on last nite. Went to a bar near my house and met a man who lives in my neighborhood. I didn't want to go home and have my 19 year old daughter see me so drunk so I risked my life and went home with this man. Fortunately he was not a rapist or worse and I had enough sense to leave when he tried to get me to sleep with him. I walked home and my daughter did see me and thats the worst part. She was not cruel about it like she has been in the past and is not giving me a hard time today. I loathe alcohol.
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You've done 6 months sobriety, that means you cracked day one,week one,month one and month six before, that's an amazing achievement and if you've done it once, you can do it again. Keep going
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