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Old 07-10-2014, 08:21 AM   #1 (permalink)
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Day 60 - what a whirlwind


Well, it arrived. Day 60. I woke up in a funk. Feeling terribly restless.
The last 2 months have been a whirlwind to say the least, it's incredible how much can happen and change in such a short amount of time (in the grand scheme of things)
In 60 days since my 2nd DUI I have managed to:
*check into detox for a week
*come clean with my employer and throw my cards on the table
*come back to work
*start to repair my relationship with my BF
*repair my relationship with my parents
*go to court, step up and take responsibility for my dumba$$ actions and have started my jail time (4 more weekends to go!!)
*start personal counselling to drag these darned skeletons out of the closet
*I start seeing my probation officer end of the month
*financially tapped from lawyers fee and cost of repairing the BF's car I damaged

*WHEW*
I am exhausted.
BUT am grateful that despite all this, I have not drank. Sure, the fleeting thought arises, but right after that thought, I recall the damage I have done and my last detox. That kicks that thought out very quickly.
I'm feeling really ...hrm....I don't know the word...Lost.
Right now, jail is enough to keep my arse sober. The fact I am on a short leash with work and personal relationships is helping.
But I know I need a plan and I am so mentally, physically, emotionally tired I am just struggling with making a proper plan. I'm hoping that once this legal crap is done (come on August 8th!!!) I can finally relax a bit and really sit down and start focussing on THE PLAN.

anyways - sorry for rambling....this place has been a HUGE HUGE help in getting me though the last 60 days. I find everyday, I read something from someone that just whacks me upside the face.
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Old 07-10-2014, 08:26 AM   #2 (permalink)
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60 Days is fantastic!! Great Job!!
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You are tired, but look at all of the steps forward you have taken to put things in order so that you can have a better life. That takes a lot of energy! Take a little breather today to just be proud of how far you have come in 60 days. I think that is most awesome.
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Jup, you are doing great and you have accomplished a lot, so no wonder you are feeling tired. Give yourself a pat on the back!
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Jupiters, congrats on your 60 days! You've made some good strides there Feeling lost can mean you are in a state of change, and on unfamiliar footing at the moment... not a bad thing at all Hang in there! Well done
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Congratulations.

Yes, you've had some hurdles. There are still more. Take them one day at a time and try not to think about Aug 8 or Nov 23 or Jul 19.

Your plan for today is to not drink. Well done! You are exactly where you are supposed to be and it will all work out.
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You are tired, but look at all of the steps forward you have taken to put things in order so that you can have a better life. That takes a lot of energy! Take a little breather today to just be proud of how far you have come in 60 days. I think that is most awesome.
I have to remind myself of this. Thanks for that. These are all wonderful steps FORWARD. which is a feat in itself!

*pats self on back*
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Congrats on 60 days! I think you're doing awesome! Once August 8th get's here you'll feel much better I'm sure, make sure you get that plan together and into action before then : )

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way to go!!!

onward and upward Jups! we're all rooting for you!



and doing happy dances!!!
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Jupiters might be tired, but she is OUT OF RETROGRADE !
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Congrats on 60 days! That's quite of list of things you've faced (and are facing there) and you have plenty to proud of. It sounds like you are definitely headed in the right direction. Pace yourself and remember to take time to just breathe!
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wonderful! Congratulations that is an exciting milestone! Keep on keeping on!
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Jupiters -- Amazing! 60 days is awesome!
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Proud of you, Jupiters!
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I have such admiration for the way you're approaching things, Jupiters, and 60 days is brilliant
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I don't think I could have approached this any other way really. I've thought about it.
I mean, I guess I could have a craptastic whiny attitude about it, but why? I'd be sick of hearing myself complain...and complain about what? I did this. I caused this chaos and mess, I must clean it up. There really is nobody to blame but myself. It feels good to accept that, hard....but good. I know I'm doing everything I can in my power to make this situation as good as it can be. and to learn from it. Over and over again! LOL
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