Tetra

Today is day 1.

I had 8 months but I had stopped going to meetings.

I feel terrible. My mom told me on the phone that she loves me but that I have broken her heart.

I am very scared. I am on my way to a meeting at 2 pm.

Nonsensical

Glad you made it back. Sounds like you've broken your own heart, too. That's what the AV does for us - promises good things and delivers heartbreak.

Best of luck on your journey to a sober life!

Dee74

I'm really sorry to hear that Tetra.

I know you've been worried about being alone and it can be a strange and confronting thing.

Try and think of this as a momentary stumble, a reinforcement that drinking is not the answer to this problem or any other

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HeadLump

I'm so sorry, Tetra, but you can rescue this - and broken hearts can mend

You know you can do this

ElleDee

I'm glad to hear you're back on track. Don't be so hard on yourself. It's not easy. You had a stumble but you haven't given up.

bellaboos

8 months is pretty amazing tetra, at least you've pinpointed what led to the relapse. Well done for getting back on track and keep going to those meetings

soberclover

Don't focus on the reaction of others. Stay focused on yourself and what you need to do to get back on the sober track; drinking doesn't work for us.

lunar

Sorry Tetra.
Day 2 here.
Gotta keep moving.
Don't give up.

Cathryn2001

((Tetra))

Begin again. You already know that you are capable of great things--nothing about this negates the growth that you have made.

charleesavedme

(((Tetra))) - I echo everything above. You have done so well and being alone would be hard for many of us. You're back and it's a new day. I'll keep you close in my thoughts today.

Stoogy

If we didn't learn as we go, there would be no point in life.

Tetra

I feel really really bad.
My mother told me that they cried last night.

Croissant

Hi tetra. Sorry to read you've relapsed.

bigsombrero

Hi Tetra,

Don't worry about the feelings of family or friends right now, that's not going to make you feel better. I know it's hard, but it might be helpful to simplify things and keep yourself safe. Try and let the guilt roll off your shoulders here - nobody died, the sun still came up, and the world is still turning. You can do this, 8 months was a great accomplishment and nobody can take that away from you. Do what is right for yourself right now, and don't worry about the others. We've got your back.

anewpage

I feel for you, Tetra. So glad you're getting right back on track.

GotGrace

Tetra, I am glad you are back. I love your little bunny and carrot!

Your mom is sad because she loves you. She wants the best for you and she doesn't want you to suffer. It is agony watching a child suffer. If she could she would make this go away for you.

Today is day 1. Here we go. You can do this!

seahorse661

Tetra,
you haven't lost what you learned in 8 months. You still have all that growth.
Don't get too wrapped up in guilt over your parents' disappointment. Guilt will keep you down everytime. It happened, it's over.

You know what you need to do now, and you have proven already that you can do it

Eddiebuckle

Tetra,

The practice of forgiveness is our most important contribution to the healing of the world. ~ Marianne Williamson

In sobriety, the first person we need to learn to forgive is ourselves. Otherwise, we get stuck reliving the mistakes of our past, while the present slips away, its potential wasted.

Accept the mistake, and move on. Life is too short and precious to wallow in shame when a brighter future could be had using that energy to grow.

PurpleKnight

Don't beat yourself up Tetra, go at it again, I hope the meeting went well!!

You can do this!!

Hawkeye13

Forgive yourself and embrace your Day 1

Funny how it isn't as great to drink as we remembered, is it?

That's what I learned from my relapse, and that has made moving forward much easier now.