ultradad

I hope you reconsider AA, it took me being ready and I didn't really 'feel' it was going to be for me either. I guess it boils down to what lengths are you willing to go to get sober, I am personally willing to go to any lengths. I think we have to be to ever find sobriety. Still pulling for you and know you can do this!

petals

Thanks guys , well starting on day 2 again.... best get on with my day, and plan my evening.

Hevyn

Day 2 - better than Day 1. Thinking of you Petals.

Raider

Day 2. Good. My day doesn't always go exactly as planned, like anyone else's. So I have to re-work my sober day when that happens. Maybe I didn't have time to read, so I filled that time with exercise, etc. good luck.

Dee74

Hows it going petals?

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least

Hope you are doing well and feeling alright.

Anna

Petals, I hope you're doing well today.

Nuudawn

I actually think that attitude is VERY prevalent in those of us who fall prey to alcohol addiction. I had that attitude most of my life. It was bred in my family of origin. And alcohol was my, me myself and I solution...for everything. It was convenient, easily applied and didn't require any other parties involved.

I am very much a proponent of the fact that I..am the manager of my recovery...BUT I need people. I need the support of those who know of exactly what I speak. I did AA in my 20's briefly..and decided it was "not for me"...continued to drink.
I went back to AA just before I hit 40...and eventually decided it was "not for me" and went back to drinkin'.

I put together 4 months of sobriety here last year...with the generous help and support of Sober Recovery. I relapsed.

Although I still very much need SR. For me, with my underdeveloped life and few friends that are local or available to hang out much....
I need more support. Heck...I just need some people I can talk to. I need to go somewhere at night when I don't know what to do with myself. I need to comb my hair..thrown on some lip gloss and get the heck out of my house.

I have returned to AA with very much a "take what I need and leave the rest" mentality (which is straight out of their Big Book if you didn't know). I may get a sponsor, I may not. I may do the steps, I may not. I really don't know at this point...

All I do know is that loneliness and isolation (in addition to self pity) are HUGE triggers for me.

I have tried to read my way out of this...think my way out of this. I have applied everything "I" am capable of doing.

I simply cannot deny I need "community"...it really does take a village to raise a (newly sober) child.

But these are only my thoughts. I do hope you find your way wee petals. It can be done.

petals

Thanks day 2 achieved! I did worry about the mini bottle of wine I was given as a gift..... it has remained sealed. I went to bed last night and thought well done me! Safely tucked up in bed....but then I thought I could just pop back down for it...managed to stay in bed. Onto day 3 today. . Will be a BIG challenge. .. we always have wine on friday and Saturday, and im a bit/very emotional today as it is 2 years since my mum passed away.

Dee74

all the more reason to get rid of the bottle petals?

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