This morning, I drank
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This morning, I drank
So I waited and waited the hours went by the holiday went by, I thought to myself you got this, I've been doing well challenging myself and feeling like I can do. Sadly, this morning I drank, I was on cloud 9 now I a know I am human and can fail.
Its was much alcohol, as a matter of fact, it was confined to a single can. However, I am glad I have regret, I am glad I realized I can't do that, and most of all I am glad I am sober again.
Alcoholism is complex, very complex, I don't know what drives my desires and I don't know why I value something, that has no value so much at times.
Often when I see relapse post I see grief and despair and depression. Let me tell you folks, there is no grief and despair or depression here, there is hope. Yes, I failed, yes I gave into temptation, but I learned even more about myself and this addiction. Nope! No grief, despair or depression here, only hope that one day, I find the answers to my addiction issues.
TDG here to say, I matter, we matter, slip, fall, whatever.... Learn from those moments, I am learning from mine, grow and keep up the good fight, this isn't your normal relapse post, this a post of positive thoughts and promise. I can't change what I've done, but I can learn and grow.
TDG here friends, stay safe and sober, and have a good day. I am not beating myself of for being human, and I hope nobody else does either. Thanks for reading
Its was much alcohol, as a matter of fact, it was confined to a single can. However, I am glad I have regret, I am glad I realized I can't do that, and most of all I am glad I am sober again.
Alcoholism is complex, very complex, I don't know what drives my desires and I don't know why I value something, that has no value so much at times.
Often when I see relapse post I see grief and despair and depression. Let me tell you folks, there is no grief and despair or depression here, there is hope. Yes, I failed, yes I gave into temptation, but I learned even more about myself and this addiction. Nope! No grief, despair or depression here, only hope that one day, I find the answers to my addiction issues.
TDG here to say, I matter, we matter, slip, fall, whatever.... Learn from those moments, I am learning from mine, grow and keep up the good fight, this isn't your normal relapse post, this a post of positive thoughts and promise. I can't change what I've done, but I can learn and grow.
TDG here friends, stay safe and sober, and have a good day. I am not beating myself of for being human, and I hope nobody else does either. Thanks for reading
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Sometimes we have to know our limits. I know when I did relapse it was when I was over confident. Today is day 90. I think what is different this time is I set rules and can not break them. Change up your program. AA meetings, sponsor, 12 step. Sober buddy. Keep your head up friend. Welcome back
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Cunning, baffling and powerful, bro. I had a counselor tell me one when I had a 2 day relapse after fairly long sobriety that it was a therapeutic relapse. I wrestled with those words, thinking he was a fool for saying that, but in actuality it made me realize more things about myself and what to look out for.
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Originally Posted by Thatdeliveryguy 
So I waited and waited the hours went by the holiday went by, I thought to myself you got this, I've been doing well challenging myself and feeling like I can do. Sadly, this morning I drank, I was on cloud 9 now I a know I am human and can fail.
Its was much alcohol, as a matter of fact, it was confined to a single can. However, I am glad I have regret, I am glad I realized I can't do that, and most of all I am glad I am sober again.
Alcoholism is complex, very complex, I don't know what drives my desires and I don't know why I value something, that has no value so much at times.
Often when I see relapse post I see grief and despair and depression. Let me tell you folks, there is no grief and despair or depression here, there is hope. Yes, I failed, yes I gave into temptation, but I learned even more about myself and this addiction. Nope! No grief, despair or depression here, only hope that one day, I find the answers to my addiction issues.
TDG here to say, I matter, we matter, slip, fall, whatever.... Learn from those moments, I am learning from mine, grow and keep up the good fight, this isn't your normal relapse post, this a post of positive thoughts and promise. I can't change what I've done, but I can learn and grow.
TDG here friends, stay safe and sober, and have a good day. I am not beating myself of for being human, and I hope nobody else does either. Thanks for reading
Its was much alcohol, as a matter of fact, it was confined to a single can. However, I am glad I have regret, I am glad I realized I can't do that, and most of all I am glad I am sober again.
Alcoholism is complex, very complex, I don't know what drives my desires and I don't know why I value something, that has no value so much at times.
Often when I see relapse post I see grief and despair and depression. Let me tell you folks, there is no grief and despair or depression here, there is hope. Yes, I failed, yes I gave into temptation, but I learned even more about myself and this addiction. Nope! No grief, despair or depression here, only hope that one day, I find the answers to my addiction issues.
TDG here to say, I matter, we matter, slip, fall, whatever.... Learn from those moments, I am learning from mine, grow and keep up the good fight, this isn't your normal relapse post, this a post of positive thoughts and promise. I can't change what I've done, but I can learn and grow.
TDG here friends, stay safe and sober, and have a good day. I am not beating myself of for being human, and I hope nobody else does either. Thanks for reading
I just want to say reading this gave me hope to continue fighting into my addiction. I finally admit to myself that I have a problem and now I'm starting to take the steps for the recovery. Its never been easy but I will stick to the hope.
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Hey TDG
I don't believe that one has to relapse to learn stuff, but many of us did it that cackhanded way.
I agree there's no point in beating yourself up or wallowing.....
but do look over what happened and why - it could be very instructive for the next time you feel tested or vulnerable.
Also think about what you've been doing to stay sober - then think about what more you could add. The stronger your foundations are the better off you'll be
D
I don't believe that one has to relapse to learn stuff, but many of us did it that cackhanded way.
I agree there's no point in beating yourself up or wallowing.....
but do look over what happened and why - it could be very instructive for the next time you feel tested or vulnerable.
Also think about what you've been doing to stay sober - then think about what more you could add. The stronger your foundations are the better off you'll be
D
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TDG ,
hey man i'm glad your back . I picked up on the words challenging yourself , some people here in the past have kept beers in the fridge or in the cupboard and seem to goad their sobriety with it .
For me that kinda challenge isn't worth it , i happily keep a long way from the edge these days
I don't know how you ended up with that beer in your hand but i thought i'd share what i'd seen and heard before and just ask the question as the wording seemed unusual .
Keep on living and learning
Bestwishes, m
hey man i'm glad your back . I picked up on the words challenging yourself , some people here in the past have kept beers in the fridge or in the cupboard and seem to goad their sobriety with it .
For me that kinda challenge isn't worth it , i happily keep a long way from the edge these days
I don't know how you ended up with that beer in your hand but i thought i'd share what i'd seen and heard before and just ask the question as the wording seemed unusual .
Keep on living and learning
Bestwishes, m
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