PurpleKnight

The past is in the past, go at it again and you'll get there!!

airwick

Luper: No need to apologize. Pick yourself up, brush yourself off and begin again

Hove a sober 4th

MIRecovery

Thomas Edison said, "I have never failed. I just know a thousand ways not to do it."

Croissant

Love this!

Thank you!xx

biminiblue

How are you doing today, Luper?

No such thing as failure, just delayed success.

Needinghelp82

I can only echo everyone else - you are NOT a loser. Today is day one, a new start. Everyone here is rooting for you.

Soberpotamus

Hi Luper, hope things are better today for you!

goodkitty

Luper:

Forgive me for being honest, but you sound like me..."I am a loser...so I may as well drink" well, this was the voice on the tape in my head. I always used it as an excuse to keep myself down and I think it was my AV talking to me. Don't let that voice beat you up...you are worth so much more than that. Tell your AV to go F**k itself and get back on the wagon. You can do this!!! (If "I" can do this, good grief anyone can!) >HUGS<

coming_clean

keep trying..don't talk yourself down..addiction is a tricky thing

copperfield

Ahhh Luper! It's ok. You were doing so well and you can again! I did too and now I'm trying again. Can we do this day one together??

Luper

Thank you all for your support and comments.

Yesterday was alot of ups and downs...but I did spend alot of time thinking about where I went wrong with my plan this time. There were some areas that I was not working hard enough at, and I have written everything down in order to read it daily now and really focus. Quit making excuses. I am the one who picked up.

Isolation is one of my biggest downfalls, so I did go out of my comfort zone yesterday. Went to the parade with some friends, came home and did some work, then went out last night and sat in the back yard with an elderly neighbor to watch the fireworks. And you know what? It felt good... small steps for me, but it was better than locking myself up in the house all day.

My doctor has also suggested a meditation group and self help group, which I will be getting information on this weekend.

So thank you all again..no, I am not a loser. Moving forward to the winners circle.

huntingtontx

You are posting so I know you still want to stop. You can do this. We are all here for you.

ultradad

Good for you Luper! It took me getting out (way out) of my comfort zone and getting to AA for me to get sober! I know you can do this! Fight for your life!

soberclover

So great that you are reflecting on changes that you can make! THIS is what people who really want recovery do....and you are doing it....yey!!

Mountainmanbob

when I could not seem to stop drinking
I had thoughts such as those over and over again
until the day came that I made a firm decision
I had set a new path with a sober lifestyle
attended AA meetings and Church
studied the AA Big Book and the Bible
went to many meetings and got a solid Sponsor
it's been working for well over 6 years now

you could do the same -- if willing

MM