liver question
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Well about a week and a half ago I decided to quit everything and go to meetings. I lasted 6 days. I don't want to do the stuff I'm doing but I'm in a place where I can barely white knuckle anymore. It's very hard to be and feel alone 24 7. I will keep trying but I can't see myself stopping everything until I'm removed from my current situation. I DO want to me sober and happy. If I could be sober and happy if I cut a finger off right now I'd do it.
Well about a week and a half ago I decided to quit everything and go to meetings. I lasted 6 days. I don't want to do the stuff I'm doing but I'm in a place where I can barely white knuckle anymore. It's very hard to be and feel alone 24 7. I will keep trying but I can't see myself stopping everything until I'm removed from my current situation. I DO want to me sober and happy. If I could be sober and happy if I cut a finger off right now I'd do it.
Well the plus point is you sound like you do indeed want to live a sober life which is great, once we want to remain sober that is half the battle won already as it takes us a while to get in that mindset but you are thankfully there.
Going to meetings is not the be all and end all regardless of what some people may say, if you are happy healthy and sober it matters not how you arrive at that point in your life, I for one did not require meetings in order to remain clean but if additional support is required then of course that may prove very helpful too.
Keep posting, you will find it truly helps.
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I hope everything works out for you with rehab. I was the kind of person who couldn't even get 6 hours, let alone a day. Rehab, among many things, saved my life and put me on the right path and I followed through with all the suggestions like a solid aftercare program and AA.
As far as what to say to your doctor, ask for full liver panels.
I actually learned in rehab that reverse tolerance is a real thing and can be dangerous. Basically, your liver becomes unable to properly process the alcohol anymore, so the alcohol just floats around in your bloodstream. It's rough stuff.
I know it may be hard to conceptualize, but if you stay sober long enough, the misery goes away if you keep working hard to improve yourself. I have faith you can turn it around if you want it enough.
As far as what to say to your doctor, ask for full liver panels.
I actually learned in rehab that reverse tolerance is a real thing and can be dangerous. Basically, your liver becomes unable to properly process the alcohol anymore, so the alcohol just floats around in your bloodstream. It's rough stuff.
I know it may be hard to conceptualize, but if you stay sober long enough, the misery goes away if you keep working hard to improve yourself. I have faith you can turn it around if you want it enough.
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Thanks everyone. I appreciate the kind words. I havnt been able to talk to anyone in meetings so it's nice to have someone understand. I don't know about this being clean thing without meetings. That's pretty funny actually. I've been clean 8 months before. White knuckling. I got to the point I was researching ways to kill myself and I didn't know why. Started drinking and it all went away. The point I'm at now though is the drugs aren't working. I'm becoming "that guy" when I'm drunk and it sucks. I'll keep trying though!
What's really hard for me now is my uncle who's room is right beside mine contains oxy and when I'm feeling so ****** and lonely its hard to resist. That is why I want to go away somewhere. I feel so out of control.
What's really hard for me now is my uncle who's room is right beside mine contains oxy and when I'm feeling so ****** and lonely its hard to resist. That is why I want to go away somewhere. I feel so out of control.
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