Looking Back
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Looking Back
Just been looking back at some old photos that were taken around 14 years ago, before l developed a problem with alcohol. l was drinking even then, but normal (at least what I'd call normal) drinking. l had the odd night where l drank too much, but l never worried where the next drink was coming from, or felt the obsessive need to drink. Looking at these photos made me wonder how the subsequent years could have been different if I'd continued to have a healthy relationship with booze.
Time has passed by in a flash, but I guess that's because of all the lost days to drinking or hangovers. All that I've been through, what if never happened? And how did l let it get so bad before l admitted l needed help? Where would l be now if I'd had the strength to tackle this problem in my 20s? All that wasted opportunity and potential happiness.
l can't forget the past but l can make peace with it. At this moment I'm thankful. l may have lost my 20s but I still have the rest of my life to rediscover that person l lost so long ago, just sans any alcohol.
Day 8 for me today, and the toughest so far for cravings. That Friday feeling I used to give in to without fail, Friday used to be my 'big night' when the drinks flowed freely, no restrictions, no limits. To cope l went to the gym and pounded that feeling out of me on the treadmill. l've started working out in the evenings. Keeping my mind and soul occupied (distracted) by the time and effort the exercise takes is one of the only things keeping me straight.
Time has passed by in a flash, but I guess that's because of all the lost days to drinking or hangovers. All that I've been through, what if never happened? And how did l let it get so bad before l admitted l needed help? Where would l be now if I'd had the strength to tackle this problem in my 20s? All that wasted opportunity and potential happiness.
l can't forget the past but l can make peace with it. At this moment I'm thankful. l may have lost my 20s but I still have the rest of my life to rediscover that person l lost so long ago, just sans any alcohol.
Day 8 for me today, and the toughest so far for cravings. That Friday feeling I used to give in to without fail, Friday used to be my 'big night' when the drinks flowed freely, no restrictions, no limits. To cope l went to the gym and pounded that feeling out of me on the treadmill. l've started working out in the evenings. Keeping my mind and soul occupied (distracted) by the time and effort the exercise takes is one of the only things keeping me straight.
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You seem to be in a very good contemplative place. Best wishes on your journey to rediscover yourself!
Working out has been my saving grace. Even when it's hard to get started, always feel better afterwards. Stick with it.
Working out has been my saving grace. Even when it's hard to get started, always feel better afterwards. Stick with it.
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