LeaRachel

Hi there all, It's been forever since I have posted and thought I'd add something since I am here again. I fell off the wagon a while back and that caused me to go into hiding, I hide well don't I? But in doing that I have begun to backslide besides drinking again. Although its not the whiskey and coke anymore I am able to modify it with wine coolers.

What I am having "fun" with now is figuring out who I am under all the layers of stuff I piled on myself as I hid from myself, Its fun trying to figure out who that is when booze and food( my drug of choice) is modified and monitored.

So here's to me, who ever she is....

PurpleKnight

It's a fantastic journey of discovery . . . go for it!!

Nuudawn

I totally agree...this is all about finding out exactly who you are and being good with that.
I struggle with many monkeys myself..
Glad you're back!

HeadLump

Welcome back, LeaRachel Here's to your journey

Dee74

Welcome back
I found it a positive experience too - turns out the real me was not so bad

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neferkamichael

LeaRachel, you are just so FANTASTIC, rootin for ya.

Anna

Yes, it's an amazing experience getting to know the real you, isn't it!

LeaRachel

Anna, I'm still tryin to figure who she is. But am looking forward to the new discovery, its a rather hard journey right now.

least

Finding ourselves isn't easy, and it's often painful. But the journey is worth it.

AlcoholFree66

It's pretty exciting realising that I like the real me much more that the practising alcoholic me!

recoverholic

LeaRachel, I am in a very similar situation. It takes time and learning how to deal with your emotions without being able to dull your mind is an adventure. With all the bad and confusing days, I am still thankful to be discovering who I really am without the alcohol.

instant

Are you still drinking? i feel like i am only just getting myself back

LeaRachel

Hey everyone, sorry it took me forever to get back to you. Yes I have fallen a few times but am determined to get back up, without making myself feel guilty or bad.

Nuudawn

Ya...I totally missed that part of your post the first time I read it. I have no idea how. When I read it tonight I didn't even realize I had posted on it...until I saw that I had.

I find I discover a whole lot more when I take booze completely out of the equation...when it cannot be the answer for anything....anything. I discover more about myself when I have the urge to drink...and don't. Sometimes it only later after I have gotten through that I understand why and I am stronger for it.

Still scratchin' my head on how I read this post so differently the first time.

Despite my personal thoughts/experience, I do hope that whatever it is you are doing is beneficial for you.