Having a tough time
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Location: Montana
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Having a tough time
Feel sick. I keep falling back into this same hole and don't know if I'll ever get out. Another terrible night filled with regret. My cousin has a few months to live. She pounds vodka all day. Her husband died last year from drinking and pills. My mom is getting married tomorrow and I should be happy but I don't like all this change. I flew across the country for this wedding and don't even want to go. I suffer from major depression and anxiety and my mom constantly makes me feel like a loser. Well because she calls me one. Yells at me. Most of the time for no reason. I miss my home and my dog. I'm sorry to complain but no one else understands. I don't want to die I have beautiful kids. Everyone will be trashed at the wedding especially this new husband. I want to be sober at the wedding but it will be one of the hardest things I've done in awhile. He's a gambler and drinker. Like me without the gambling. I have enough in laws and am not enthusiastic about having a new group of people to criticize me. I just want to go home.
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Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: South Shore, MA
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Sometimes if I am that situation, I nice glass of seltzer cranberry and lime keeps me sober and keeps people off my back. Looks like a cocktail, but isn't. Just gets
Me through the more difficult events, good luck and hang in there, play the tape, you will only feel worse tomorrow if you partake!
Me through the more difficult events, good luck and hang in there, play the tape, you will only feel worse tomorrow if you partake!
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Minnetonka, MN
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I'm so sorry your own mom treats you like that. I've never understood how a parent can be so cruel to her own children, it just blows my mind...they're just words though, words from someone who, to me, sounds incredibly irrational and has lots of her own problems to deal with before she can even THINK about pointing out anyone else's.
I wish you luck this weekend, and I hope it's not too difficult. Just remember that it's only a weekend, crappy as it may be. It WILL end, and you'll get through it.
I wish you luck this weekend, and I hope it's not too difficult. Just remember that it's only a weekend, crappy as it may be. It WILL end, and you'll get through it.
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Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Ireland
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Keep in mind that at some points in the wedding you will be able to slip away unnoticed for some quiet time, outside or away from the main group, people won't miss you if they are drinking and as other people will be busy those that aren't drinking won't notice you're away for a bit, some fresh air and a breather may do some good.
You can do this!!
You can do this!!
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