Craving just came over me
 

Unbelievable! I'm still getting over injuries from my recent fall into the coffee table and right now I'm sitting here contemplating stopping on the way home for a bottle. :react

Well I'm fighting it... got plans to go to a meeting tonight.

Anything you can say will be helpful right now.

You came here and POSTED about it and didn't buy the drink. You have a plan in place, which is going to a meeting!!!!
I'd say that's a step in the right direction. How long until the meeting?

This too shall pass.


Just don't pick up today. That's all.

Tell that irritating voice in your head that is whispering those foolish suggestions that you're going to stuff it into a box and then plug its air hole until it promises to behave.

Gotta echo Jupiters...you posted! Good work. Craving will pop out of nowhere...and rationality has little to do with it (e.g. your thoughts bout still sporting visible injuries). Are you familiar with H.A.L.T (hungry, angry, lonely, tired?). Pausing to reflect on whether I was any of those things when a craving hit has been real helpful to me in the past.

Every craving overcome adds to your sobriety muscle. Thinking of you ED...

Better to post it here than to give in and drink. :)

Hi everyone... thanks for the words of support. I'm okay right now and yes Nuudawn, tired and lonely. Previously mentioned, it's starting to get to me that my hubby won't look at me or talk to me. But I have a meeting in a couple of hours and in the meantime I have laundry to fold and then I'm heading out to Starbucks for a coffee and some reading before the meeting. Getting out of the house will help. I feel so emotional. Ack!

:thanks

Coming off alcohol involves a lot of raw emotion and a roller coaster of thinking, for sure.

It gets better the further away you get from the last drink. I was a hot mess for a lot of the first month, then things started getting better. Hang in there - it does level out soon.

Meetings saved me. Try to find a sponsor or at least another woman who has been in the program for a while that you can call when you start spinning.

We KNOW we can't DRINK....To drink is to DIE....don't do it, standing beside you all of the way!!!!!

Flyboy

ElleDee - a big iced coffee sounds delish right now!! You got this - great job posting!

Good job getting out the house and changing things up !

A meeting has always given me time to reassess things, ...plus many times, much more.

So glad you recognized how fruitless it is to attempt medicating physical pain with alcohol;
.... that's just old Western Movie BS !?!

:)

take a look in the mirror at your black eye and remember how you got it, falling over drunk.
remember how embarrassed you are at lying to people at work how you got it.
congrats on your 4 days of being sober, we have all been there.

Getting out and doing something different is a good strategy. Don't let it corner you, but even you do find yourself cornered, remember that it's a quadriplegic. It can't do a damned thing on it's own but nag you to get what it wants. Don't give in. Remember why you came here. It wasn't because you enjoyed what drinking was doing to you.

It took me a couple rounds of black eyes, bumps and bruises, and stitches for gashes in my head from falling before I finally "got it" that I cannot cannot cannot drink alcohol. Do whatever is necessary to NOT drink. It will be worth it.