My Story
Something about your post gives me the feeling that you are quitting alcohol because you feel you have to due to consequences and possible further consequences.
I'm wondering if you dug down deep...took a real good look at the crumbling ruins around you...perhaps you could man up and make the "choice" for sobriety.
What alcohol takes ...sobriety in turn, gives back...eventually.
I hope you understand what I mean. I hope to help..not offend.
I'm wondering if you dug down deep...took a real good look at the crumbling ruins around you...perhaps you could man up and make the "choice" for sobriety.
What alcohol takes ...sobriety in turn, gives back...eventually.
I hope you understand what I mean. I hope to help..not offend.
I've thought about that too, and no, it doesn't offend me. I'm just not sure if I am staying sober now because of further consequences, or if I really will be able to once this mess is cleared up. My brother knows a lot about the drug testing and is about to be a cop, and he said that I could test clean if I timed everything right and limited myself to one or two drinks. I dunno how true this is, but I am still scared to even try that, even though I have yet to be called in to test, have no PO, or anything of the sort. Further, my attorney said that he's worked with this court for years, and the only way you get tested is if there is "cause to believe that you're drinking, using, etc." but I am still scared to even have anything, so I am not sure. Part of me applauds myself for staying strong and not risking it with the given information, and part of me is just like f*** it, just do it.
I'm w/ coldfusion here...had about 200+ mtgs on attendance sheet for judge plus having chaired around 5 by the time my court date came up.He only mandated 2/wk but could have been worse. I don't go to mtgs to get slip signed but to save my life(7-10/wk). If you show the judge making an effort to turn life around thru sobriety, don't c why he/she wouldn't give a break. Plus this is 1st; I was dealing w/ 2nd.
Denial is an obvious human reaction but surrender so you can win. This disease is cunning, baffling & powerful as its taught in the program so wouldn't kid myself anymore that "this is not for me"
Best wishes
Denial is an obvious human reaction but surrender so you can win. This disease is cunning, baffling & powerful as its taught in the program so wouldn't kid myself anymore that "this is not for me"
Best wishes
Going to meetings can only help you. If you think that there is even a slim chance that you can drink again and get away with it, it's very likely that you will drink. That means there's a chance that you can drink and get busted which will not be good for your situation. Why risk it? Meetings don't guarantee sobriety but i've found that it's hard to drink with a head full of AA.
You seem to be in a very delicate situation. What are you going to do? You can take a step in the right direction which will not only look good for your case but may help you to establish relationships that can save your life and save you from having to go through this situation again or you can continue to do this frantic damage control while worrying about things you can't change and trying to figure out how much you can get away with.
You seem to be in a very delicate situation. What are you going to do? You can take a step in the right direction which will not only look good for your case but may help you to establish relationships that can save your life and save you from having to go through this situation again or you can continue to do this frantic damage control while worrying about things you can't change and trying to figure out how much you can get away with.
My brother knows a lot about the drug testing and is about to be a cop, and he said that I could test clean if I timed everything right and limited myself to one or two drinks.
Nice to have a bro that can teach you how to beat a drug test. That's messed up. I'm speechless. Hope you find your way, somehow.
Nice to have a bro that can teach you how to beat a drug test. That's messed up. I'm speechless. Hope you find your way, somehow.
My brother knows a lot about the drug testing and is about to be a cop, and he said that I could test clean if I timed everything right and limited myself to one or two drinks.
Nice to have a bro that can teach you how to beat a drug test. That's messed up. I'm speechless. Hope you find your way, somehow.
Nice to have a bro that can teach you how to beat a drug test. That's messed up. I'm speechless. Hope you find your way, somehow.
True, but I don't think that my family realizes it's as big of a problem for me as it is...
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