ElleDee

Hello everyone,

I have a doctor appointment this afternoon. I've been having some liver issues she can't figure out. I'm also going to have to explain the black eye I got the other night (klunking my head on the coffee table when I was drunk). BUT I am 3 days sober. I'm expecting to hear that not much has changed with the liver and I already have an appointment with a specialist but I'm going to be honest with her about my eye and my drinking and we'll see what she says. I'm just a little nervous. Really nervous actually.

Then I have to go home and go out to dinner with my husband who won't even look at me (or speak to me) and my step-son and his SO. My eye looks even worse than yesterday so I'll have to lie to my step son in front of his father who knows the truth. I think I'm just going to say I had a run in with the coffee table and it's a stupid story and hopefully that will be enough.

FeelingGreat

Hi ED, it can be really hard telling your doc how much you drink, but try to be honest. They usually have a good idea anyway.
Congratulations on Day 3; do you have a goal like a year or a week or something to aim for? Good luck with the liver problems, and keep up the sobriety.

ElleDee

My goal is a month right now. I want to get the 30-day token. I'm doing different things this time... showing up here often during the day, MORE AA meetings, some reading, not plunking down on the couch at night where the drinking always took place. Praying a lot. I am also going to get a real sponsor this time around. I have a pseudo-sponsor/friend in AA but she doesn't want to be a full blown sponsor but she is a good counselor having 30 years of sobriety herself.

PurpleKnight

Good luck for the appointment!!

Nuudawn

It is enough. There is no need to whip open the trenchcoat and stand naked and vulnerable to everyone at this point.

Boundaries is something I am really trying to work on in sobriety. My internal coast guard has been hammered and absent far too long.

All the best with the doc.

Carlotta

Be open with your physician about your drinking and how you got your black eye. Your doctor's first thought might be that you are in a domestic violence situation, better set the record straight and also let him/her know so you can be treated accordingly for your liver
As far as your stepson goes, you don't have to lie but you don't have to go in the gory details either. If he asks, just say: I tripped and felt on the coffee table (which is the truth).
Congratulations on 3 days

firstymer

Good luck, ElleDee, with the doctor's visit and with everything else. I will be thinking good thoughts for you.

KAD

Way to go on 3 days and best of luck with your doctor. I just recently admitted to mine that I'm an alcoholic after lying to him for over 10 years saying I don't drink at all! I applaud you for getting the help you need!

GracieLou

If they ask, tell them you got the shiner while ice fishing in the Bahamas

Congrats on your 3 days! Keep up the good work.

FeelingGreat

Yes!!! I had a place on the couch where my drinking happened and a familiar routine, home from work, hadn't eaten, telly on, glass of wine.

I still plonk myself there but replaced the ritual glass of wine with tea in a teapot, or sparkling water, or a nice soft drink.

Dee74

Hope everything was ok ElleDee

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ElleDee

Thank you all. The doc appreciated my honesty and was very helpful and empathetic. She also has alcoholism in her family and she gave me some good advice. It felt good to be honest with her. I feel like a load has been lifted.

I went to a meeting last night and ran into some people I know. My husband is still pretending I don't exist but I feel better so I can wait until he comes around. I know that today I'm doing the best I can and that's all I can do.

Thanks again everyone for your kind and funny words of support.