Day 45 and the Day of Reckoning!
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Day 45 and the Day of Reckoning!
well, it is here. No, not day 45...hahah although I am pretty stoked about that! 
....court day. Handcuff, sentence, take me to jail day.
I'm exhausted (obviously sleep hasn't been my friend) but at the same time, relieved. I just want this process started, and even though I am taken into custody today...I don't actually start my time til friday where I start weekends.
But today I finally find out how many weekends and whatelse the court wants from me so there is an element of relief.
I am also VERY VERY proud of myself that during all this time, I didn't turn to the bottle. B/C if I ever had an "excuse/reason/justification" it would have been the last 5.5 weeks. Stressed beyond! But I didn't
I had the fleeting thought on a weekend..."oh I'd love a glass of wine"....but that's all they were...fleeting thoughts.
so - gonna enjoy my coffee and last couple smokes (I need to quit this crap too!) and head off to face my consequences with a positive attitude.
*deeeeeeeeeeeeeeep breath*
Thanks all you guys, this board has been a lifeline since I joined.
....court day. Handcuff, sentence, take me to jail day. I'm exhausted (obviously sleep hasn't been my friend) but at the same time, relieved. I just want this process started, and even though I am taken into custody today...I don't actually start my time til friday where I start weekends.
But today I finally find out how many weekends and whatelse the court wants from me so there is an element of relief.
I am also VERY VERY proud of myself that during all this time, I didn't turn to the bottle. B/C if I ever had an "excuse/reason/justification" it would have been the last 5.5 weeks. Stressed beyond! But I didn't
I had the fleeting thought on a weekend..."oh I'd love a glass of wine"....but that's all they were...fleeting thoughts.
so - gonna enjoy my coffee and last couple smokes (I need to quit this crap too!) and head off to face my consequences with a positive attitude.
*deeeeeeeeeeeeeeep breath*
Thanks all you guys, this board has been a lifeline since I joined.
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Way to go! Taking responsibility for your actions is what being sober is all about. You are on a new path now towards a brighter future, just keep moving forward one day at a time and you will get through your sentence too. 
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Okay..in Canada ..or at least in BC..the garb is earthy rather than orange.
You can start journalling your "Green is the New Black" for the Great White North.
Uber impressed with your strength Jupiters. We will be here anxious to hear of your weekend adventure.
You can start journalling your "Green is the New Black" for the Great White North.
Uber impressed with your strength Jupiters. We will be here anxious to hear of your weekend adventure.
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well, I certainly didn't feel strong yesterday. It was the worst day of my life. I am glad THAT part is done, now I just need to get through 6 weekends.
They forgot about me, I sat in a small cell for 9 hours. My entire body aches from the steel bench. No food, no drink. Clanging, screaming, banging. Stripped searched.
ankle and hand cuffed and shoved in the back of a patty wagon 7 hours late to be processed at the jail I'm going to. Guards there are total bitches.
I'm terrified of going back to this place tomorrow already
It was a day from hell.....but I got through it somehow. My eyes are swollen from crying so much...LOL...I need to work soon so better slap some ice them!
The judge was a nice lady though
lesson learned...seriously. This has been such a traumatizing experience. If I can't learn my lesson from this...I need serious help. Hahaha
day 46 - still going strong!! my resolve is VERY VERY strong after that day. I do not EVER EVER EVER want to be in this position again. I'm not cut out for this!
thanks everyone for your support - sorry if I sound like a big baby. I feel like one.
They forgot about me, I sat in a small cell for 9 hours. My entire body aches from the steel bench. No food, no drink. Clanging, screaming, banging. Stripped searched.
ankle and hand cuffed and shoved in the back of a patty wagon 7 hours late to be processed at the jail I'm going to. Guards there are total bitches.
I'm terrified of going back to this place tomorrow already
It was a day from hell.....but I got through it somehow. My eyes are swollen from crying so much...LOL...I need to work soon so better slap some ice them!
The judge was a nice lady though
lesson learned...seriously. This has been such a traumatizing experience. If I can't learn my lesson from this...I need serious help. Hahaha
day 46
- still going strong!! my resolve is VERY VERY strong after that day. I do not EVER EVER EVER want to be in this position again. I'm not cut out for this! thanks everyone for your support - sorry if I sound like a big baby. I feel like one.
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A big baby? Hardly. That sounds so very awful. As you say...traumatizing. I'm so very glad though to hear you feel strengthened in your resolve by having to endure this.
That does sound like a day in hell.
That does sound like a day in hell.
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I for one am so proud of you! Most would be drinking up until court day, but you made the resolve to see it through and NEVER have to feel this way again! I applaud you! I believe it's not going to be as bad as you think because we usually build things up so much worse in our heads, but however it turns out I'll be praying for you and I know you have the strength to make it through!
But at least you know now what you're facing. Before long this will all be behind you xx
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