Had a very bad night.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Leeds
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Your story reminded me of something I read today which made me laugh: ‘Socialising’ means getting pissed
In case anyone is wondering/hasn't heard of it it's a parody site (it's basically the british onion), I promise it won't break your hard drive or anything.
In case anyone is wondering/hasn't heard of it it's a parody site (it's basically the british onion), I promise it won't break your hard drive or anything.
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,237
I like the word you used..."wrath" that you would
get from your wife when you returned home. That
is exactly what I would face from my then spouse
of about 8yrs into our marriage each time I went
out to a club to unwhine from the days activities
with kids and housewife duties.
However, my unwhining was just an excuse to
go to a place where others drank like I did and
had fun since my spouse wasn't the drinker in
the family.
My unwhining led me to returning home at
2am if not longer in the morning facing the
wrath of my spouse one too many times.
One night I didn't make it home because
I ran into some construction zone less than
a mile away from home hitting a concrete
culvert sitting ontop the ground. EMS was
called by a passer byer and was taken to
the hospital in which I have no rememberance
of the ride.
Can you imagine a loved one receiving
a call in the wee hours telling them that
their spouse had an accident and the EMS
is in route to the hospital.
I spent 10 in the hospital with having my
punctured spleen removed so I wouldn't
bleed to death along with numerous broken
ribs, bones, contusions, them reattaching
my chin and a flap of skin on my forehead.
Yes, I was a mess.
That incident happened in Feb. 1990. Did
that stop me from drinking? Nope. I picked
up a drink again in Aug. 1990 after the pills
I was on didn't have anymore pain to get rid
of and was pretty much healed from the car
accident.
I went right back to the same club, stayed
out late once again, to only return to face
the wrath of my spouse once again. This
time I said I had enough and just wanted
to die. My spouse told me no I didn't and
to just go to sleep. I'll show him I meant
what I said and took a bottle of nuprin and
some left over pain pills with my last gulp
of wine and staggered off to bed not even
thinking of the consequences that would
follow my actions.
My 2 little ones tried to wake me without
success until I could hear a faint ringing
of the phone next to my bed woke me up.
Altho it was my motherinlaw, to this day
I believe it was my HP - God of my understanding
calling me to say He wasn't thru with me yet
and to get up.
I did and what transpired within the
next few hours was to be a turning
point in my life. Family did an intervention
on me having the authorities come pick
me up upon a court order and taken to
rehab where Aug. 11th would be my first
full day sober and where I would remain
in rehab for 28 days learning about my
addiction and to receive tools of a recovery
program to guide me and incorporate in
my everyday life for many days Id remain
sober one day at a time.
That was 23 yrs ago as I inch closer to
my 24th sobriety anniversary coming up
in a few months.
Never did I have to face the "WRATH" of
my spouse for coming in late again drunk.
Thank goodness..!!!!
get from your wife when you returned home. That
is exactly what I would face from my then spouse
of about 8yrs into our marriage each time I went
out to a club to unwhine from the days activities
with kids and housewife duties.
However, my unwhining was just an excuse to
go to a place where others drank like I did and
had fun since my spouse wasn't the drinker in
the family.
My unwhining led me to returning home at
2am if not longer in the morning facing the
wrath of my spouse one too many times.
One night I didn't make it home because
I ran into some construction zone less than
a mile away from home hitting a concrete
culvert sitting ontop the ground. EMS was
called by a passer byer and was taken to
the hospital in which I have no rememberance
of the ride.
Can you imagine a loved one receiving
a call in the wee hours telling them that
their spouse had an accident and the EMS
is in route to the hospital.
I spent 10 in the hospital with having my
punctured spleen removed so I wouldn't
bleed to death along with numerous broken
ribs, bones, contusions, them reattaching
my chin and a flap of skin on my forehead.
Yes, I was a mess.
That incident happened in Feb. 1990. Did
that stop me from drinking? Nope. I picked
up a drink again in Aug. 1990 after the pills
I was on didn't have anymore pain to get rid
of and was pretty much healed from the car
accident.
I went right back to the same club, stayed
out late once again, to only return to face
the wrath of my spouse once again. This
time I said I had enough and just wanted
to die. My spouse told me no I didn't and
to just go to sleep. I'll show him I meant
what I said and took a bottle of nuprin and
some left over pain pills with my last gulp
of wine and staggered off to bed not even
thinking of the consequences that would
follow my actions.
My 2 little ones tried to wake me without
success until I could hear a faint ringing
of the phone next to my bed woke me up.
Altho it was my motherinlaw, to this day
I believe it was my HP - God of my understanding
calling me to say He wasn't thru with me yet
and to get up.
I did and what transpired within the
next few hours was to be a turning
point in my life. Family did an intervention
on me having the authorities come pick
me up upon a court order and taken to
rehab where Aug. 11th would be my first
full day sober and where I would remain
in rehab for 28 days learning about my
addiction and to receive tools of a recovery
program to guide me and incorporate in
my everyday life for many days Id remain
sober one day at a time.
That was 23 yrs ago as I inch closer to
my 24th sobriety anniversary coming up
in a few months.
Never did I have to face the "WRATH" of
my spouse for coming in late again drunk.
Thank goodness..!!!!
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Join Date: Jun 2014
Location: Augusta, GA
Posts: 888
Bruno,
I'm feeling for you buddy, but you're right...EVERYTHING has to change! My experience is that I needed a specific plan. I told my wife after every drunk that I was changing and would never happen again...yet it did every two weeks or so! I finally had to humble myself and accept that I'm an alcoholic and I went to an AA meeting! I ended up going to 14 day inpatient treatment, but it's the program of AA and my higher power that has and keeps me sober.
My life has changed completely now and I'm a happier person and so is my wife.
Pulling for you!
I'm feeling for you buddy, but you're right...EVERYTHING has to change! My experience is that I needed a specific plan. I told my wife after every drunk that I was changing and would never happen again...yet it did every two weeks or so! I finally had to humble myself and accept that I'm an alcoholic and I went to an AA meeting! I ended up going to 14 day inpatient treatment, but it's the program of AA and my higher power that has and keeps me sober.
My life has changed completely now and I'm a happier person and so is my wife.
Pulling for you!
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: Staffordshire UK
Posts: 514
Hi guys,
I've just read through this thread again and would like to thank everybody who has replied and messaged me personally,
Tuesday was a terrible day for me and I'll don't think that I'll ever need any better reason to quit drinking than the events of that day/night.
I've had no booze since that day and don't intend to ever have any again. I'm feeling really positive about the future but I'm also still feeling really guilty about tuesdays episode. All is good between myself and my wife so I'm a happy chappy.
Thanks very much again,
Bruno.
I've just read through this thread again and would like to thank everybody who has replied and messaged me personally,
Tuesday was a terrible day for me and I'll don't think that I'll ever need any better reason to quit drinking than the events of that day/night.
I've had no booze since that day and don't intend to ever have any again. I'm feeling really positive about the future but I'm also still feeling really guilty about tuesdays episode. All is good between myself and my wife so I'm a happy chappy.
Thanks very much again,
Bruno.
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Join Date: Jun 2014
Posts: 42
hi Bruno,
keep in touch with us - this community has helped me so much.
it's important to connect the drinking with the feelings of that night, so that you actually want to stop drinking, not just avoid nights like that.....
have you thought about saying to your wife that you want to stop? how you feel? I have realised that making promises means nothing if you can't keep them.
The improvements in my life and my relationships I have experienced since deciding I won't drink anymore is unfathomable...
don't look back. Keep going
:-)
keep in touch with us - this community has helped me so much.
it's important to connect the drinking with the feelings of that night, so that you actually want to stop drinking, not just avoid nights like that.....
have you thought about saying to your wife that you want to stop? how you feel? I have realised that making promises means nothing if you can't keep them.
The improvements in my life and my relationships I have experienced since deciding I won't drink anymore is unfathomable...
don't look back. Keep going
:-)
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Georgia
Posts: 3,062
I'm glad things are okay on the homefront. This is where I usually messed up. As long as things in my life were going well, I didn't stay as focused as I needed to on the drinking issues. Stay true to your sober journey.
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Join Date: Jun 2014
Location: Albany Western Australia
Posts: 34
Hi Bruno just read this whole thread was very Encouraging for my struggle. This success you have had shows you can do it look forward to seeing more good news
We can't change our past but what we do today will change our future. Sounds like a good signature to me.
We can't change our past but what we do today will change our future. Sounds like a good signature to me.
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