Nuudawn

"I don't know where I'm going..
but I sure know where I been"..

Always really liked that tune if it comes to your mind..

I'm sober...and I like it. It feels right. I'm hoping next summer solstice I'll have a whole darn year under my belt. And in this next coming year I will give more respect to the seasons and cycles of it. I will be wary of "recovery burnout" and PAWS. I will make sure I do new things...and have fun rather than just sit inside my head or behind this keyboard in "recovery" 24/7. I will add to my life rather than just bang around wide eyed in it like a pinball whacking targets.

I have a drinking problem (among others). I have come to realize that is only with a clear and sober head I will EVER make any progress in this life.

Sobriety is the place I can solve problems..not run from them.

I want to be here. I also wanted to put a more positive thread out there ...than my last. It can slink back into the dark night now.

What seems to be lifted...is my shame around my drinking problem. I have one. I have mountains of evidence that will attest to that.
I will find no answers in inebriation.

It has been a dear (albeit poisonous) companion for the majority of my life.
I do believe I have outgrown it. It's time to say goodbye ...forever.

I think I'm good with that. It honestly feels that way today. Today...it really feels like a commitment I can keep...finally.

PurpleKnight

Great post!! . . . and there's always room for a bit of Whitesnake!!

Jeni26

Very cool

I have no doubts at all that we will be celebrating your year with you next Summer.

Nuudawn

OMG Jen..I loooooooove that pic.

And PK...thanks for the tune. Love, love, love it.

Jeni26

I will save it and re-post it on June 21st 2015 and we will celebrate your year of sobriety x

Nuudawn

I'm seriously considering buying myself a ring...a sparkly one...a sobriety ring.

AlcoholFree66

Great idea Nuudawn! I've been married just over 20 years and been sober for about 8 of those years - not all at one time. But you are so right - if I am not 'married' to sobriety first it had got to the point that neither my husband or kids would want a relationship with you. Go girl! Have a good day.

Thepatman

Sincerely happy you are bouncing back swiftly.

You have put a knee down, we all have done it including me. It's not about how we fall it's about how we get back up someone wise once said.

LadyBlue0527

Love this post and love the post about loving this post!

Time to turn this ship around

alphaomega

Time to put a ring on it.

fini

Nuudawn,

i used that marriage-concept to good effect. played with it ad infinitum (ad nauseum, some might insist).
went into the 'cherish' bit, through the commitment, to the 'forsaking all others', and wrote little stories in my head about how she'd not stick around if i cheated....endlessly useful analogy.

i'm glad you're giving it another shot.

cheering you on

Dee74

I had you pegged as a Whitesnake gal

Great post Nuu, and great decision. You won't regret it

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happyandfree

I love the ring idea-I think I'll get one too. I also loved reading your upbeat and positive post, nuu. Yay for you!

Acheleus

I also think the ring idea is fantastic. You are very special Nuu and I am glad you are feeling better today. We can all help each other do this sobriety thing one day at a time. Thank you for helping me so much in the past.

Again, the ring is a great idea.

Nuudawn

Awww...thank you Acheleus! I was thinking bout you the other day as I hadn't seen you around lately.

I'm so very, very glad you are here...and you stopped in to say "hey". I was so very happy to see all the changes in your life when I last saw a post from you.

You made my day Ache. (Ache being you...my day has been far from painful : )

FourSeasons

Hey NuuDawn! I am sensing that you are on the verge of getting your MoJo back. Go with it. Just let your hair down!

Ache... I agree with Nuu. It is so nice to see your post!

Acheleus

I'm glad you are still here too. Your personality always comes through in your posts and you have a lovely sense of humor. It seems that other people in my life see the changes but I have a more difficult time recognizing them. Even though I am sober my thinking can still get pretty negative, so I am trying to work on that and stay positive no matter what happens.

Nuudawn

Sometimes it takes awhile to get used to the new you. I got pretty fat in my late 20's ..and was for a number of years.
Then I lost 45 pounds. It took a loooooooong time before I registered I wasn't that chubster anymore.
I hate to use this analogy..but given the company..why not?

I remember I had lost the weight months previous and someone said "geez, you can sure drink a lot for a little woman".

I remember thinking 'OH my...someone just actually called me little. I'm not little!!". I was...just didn't "register" it yet. Took over a year for me to stop feeling like the chubbier gal I once was.

Hmmmm...maybe that was too much personality

soberlicious

Tatted rings are nice too. And permanent.

Nothing says I will love you forever like ink. Xo

jdooner

Good for you Nuu - I think its a great idea. I am not a big tattoo guy but I do like the concept of a sober date. Makes you think a bit harder when you know that ink is permanent.