MrTumble

Aiko, I think rehab is a good idea for you. Think of it as preventative, because if you continue in this way, you know where it will lead. Perhaps there is a 2 week rehab program that can at least get you through detox?

Aiko

I really am not well today!!!
And top it got BIG problems at work ##### it!!!
I really do not know how the hell I am Going to make it today!!!!
Topped with a mesage from a friend to meet if need anything great news! Yessss some.pottttttt or even better some ##### benzo.... To wash down with a bottle!!!! I
I am sick of that useless medication they even want me not.to have anymoreee!!!!

Sorry I do not have a thing to calm me down!
Is all just at.a ####### phone call!!!!!!!

Are the ###### stars getting aligned??????

I just need to
To calm Down!!!!
I can not think straight!

(Sorry about the hash keys)

SoberLeigh

Sweet, Aiko. I am really, really worried for you. Please don't go to that friend for drugs or alcohol.

I agree with the other posters who have suggested detox/rehab; I truly believe it is time; you have suffered enough, Aiko. Please head to rehab.

Keep posting; we are here for you.

caboblanco

Aiko..you are almost done with work..right? so you can tend to your withdrawal

you can do it.. don't go to see the pothead guy...don't even think about it!!!

ImperfectlyMe

Aiko "friends" don't leave messages like that, that's a dealer. Don't confuse the 2 because your friends are the ones telling you to get help.

If you have the ability to actually go to rehab why not take that chance??? There are so many people desperate to get into a recovery center.

It's a brief moment of time, rehab, which could ultimately rewrite your future.

Nuudawn

Aiko...you're so weary.
Quit fighting...wave the white flag. You cannot do this alone.

My lovely, lovely sister just called me the other day. We hadn't spoke since my last sobriety as she was on a downward drunken spiral. It got very, very bad. She ended up trying to end it all....
but a tiny voice within spoke to her...
She got up, called a friend and got herself to detox...

She's been sober just over 4 months now. She tells me she finally wants to live now..

I think she's amazing. I have never been more impressed by this woman.

She saved herself...by herself...she walked into the doors of a detox unit...alone.
She knew there was no fight left in her.

I believe it is the bravest, strongest thing she has ever, ever done.

Please get help.

jdooner

Aiko - we have all been where you are in some shape or form. Its why I can say with utter conviction that the only way to win this war is to surrender this battle. You can't fight addiction because your only fighting yourself.

You said you would rather be dead than have your parents find out. I am certain they would not want that outcome, especially after loosing their son, your brother.

Surrender this silly fight. Get help. Let you real friends and family help you not the dealers and sycophants that you think are your friends.

I guarantee one thing that if you goto rehab and can stay clean and sober for a year you will look back and think it was the best decision you ever made. If I am wrong, I will apologize and you can go back to using.

SoberLeigh

Nuudawn, the thought of your sister passing through the doors of a detox center, all alone, brought tears.

Aiko

Is really getting nasty now... I mean it... I can not calm down!!!! I need somethingggg!!!!!!

SoberLeigh

Aiko - it truly sounds as if you need a medically supervised detox/rehab. An emergency center could probably get that ball rolling for you right away.

Aiko

I thought about it...
I got some presvription rolling...
I am going to get the meds back
.. Or i am going to have.a nasty anxiety attackt...

I am going tomorrow morning to the drug centre.to see tjem....i can not wait to tomorrow...

ScottFromWI

I think you should go to a hospital and check into detox instead. Getting more drugs will only postpone this misery and make it worse.

Aiko

I calmed down now!
I am sorry... Could not cope anymore...
I stupidly thought I could make it but lost control completely!!!
I am wreckless I stuff myself of all sorts and suddenly stopped! The anxiety was umbearable I mean it!
Dod not sleep y head still aches...
I screamed, cried and was agresive all in the same day!!!

I only got back on the small meds did not get strong stuff! And have taken small amount... To calm!
I nearly got to hospital at some point!
But could not even drive or think!
So I walked to the quemist.

Sorry to worry everybody!
You all were taking the time and care to help me
but my head is so bloked was not listening!
The relapses and withdraws are getting worse each time!!! And keep switching alcohol pills and pot!

I admit it I can not do it on my own!
I am going to the drug centre tomorrow early!
They are going to.go bananas!!!

Thank you all for all your help and care!
Will not post anymore stuff till I het better!

Big Hug Aiko XXX

SoberLeigh

I hope you post no matter what, Aiko. Don't stay away!!!!

tomsteve

Aiko, I personally believe its time for ya to stop screwin around and get into a rehab. there are quite a few choices for them in and around you.
http://www.12steptreatmentcentres.co...ntre_44575.asp

Dee74

Let us know what happens tomorrow aiko

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liss74

Your a very special person you remind me of myself with your honesty that's why all these people want to help you I know because they never gave up on me . I'm 2 week sober now . I know you can do this . For 6 mths I had so many people from here AA suggesting detox and I was nooooo ! Well couldn't do it anymore by myself and checked myself in. I was so scared and turned out the best thing I ever did . I couldn't get sober in my environment needed to be taken out of it . Been following your posts and want you to just let go and let the cards fall where they will. Be free to be me never loose your honesty and keep posting people love you lots your special xxx

Shining~Again

I follow yer posts but have not ONE CLUE how to respond as you never ....ever...mention
what on earth you are taking.
Obviously it's a huge problem whatever it is. Yet so many people here, over the years, tend to have a wee bit of advice on tapering down, talking to the doctor about it, finding other avenues to go through or try...

I feel so much for you but have no way to puyt forth any thoughts as..totally lost.

I've thought of you for days when I see yer posts but////nothing to write back?
Dunno if it would matter in the end. I'm just not used to being completely in the dark
to someones problem.

either way....keep posting, keep writing, I know this does help no matter what drug or drink one is speaking of.

xox

caboblanco

Aiko... stop messing around. enter yourself in rehab where they watch you. take a break from this craziness...you are making me dizzy. its hard to hold down a job and come off all the crap...you have to check into detox and rehab...you've spun the wheel too fast

do it for yourself

Notimetoloose

Aiko, lots of posts from well informed people all saying the same thing. Time for rehab..Do you think that they are wrong?

Your central nervous system is shot, your brain function is shot, your body is is taking a brutal beating.

Rehab is good, take a break, get some respite from the madness and recover.