Introduction - new member
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Join Date: Jun 2014
Location: Austin
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Introduction - new member
Hello Folks. I am not necessarily new to recovery. But I might as well be. The irony is that my latest and greatest addiction is to an internet message board (for sports). So, I guess you could say it's progress (from others) . . .
I've set up an application on my computer/devices to send me to this site whenever I am getting out of hand (spending too much time) in the hooking sites/boards.
Looking forward to participating on the board. So thankful stuff like this is here!
I've set up an application on my computer/devices to send me to this site whenever I am getting out of hand (spending too much time) in the hooking sites/boards.
Looking forward to participating on the board. So thankful stuff like this is here!
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Join Date: Jun 2014
Location: Austin
Posts: 2
The Next Right Step
Trying to stay in the moment . . . which right now for me means facing (more) "mess" in my business and finances that I have allowed to accumulate.
Trying not to beat myself up right now, but the voices are very loud. Things like "you're such an idiot." "What kind of loser neglects the most basic of tasks (like filing taxes for a pass-through . . . which don't even require payment!).
I am a Christian so I try to picture Jesus' face urging me forward with pride. Even that is a painful exercise . . . because I actually believe He is here and filled with love and compassion. If I sit there and think about THAT for more than, like, three seconds, I will melt into a puddle of tears.
Which ALSO makes me want to run and hide (from Him). As if that were even possible, no matter how much I have tried.
There's my "share" for the day. :-)
Trying not to beat myself up right now, but the voices are very loud. Things like "you're such an idiot." "What kind of loser neglects the most basic of tasks (like filing taxes for a pass-through . . . which don't even require payment!).
I am a Christian so I try to picture Jesus' face urging me forward with pride. Even that is a painful exercise . . . because I actually believe He is here and filled with love and compassion. If I sit there and think about THAT for more than, like, three seconds, I will melt into a puddle of tears.
Which ALSO makes me want to run and hide (from Him). As if that were even possible, no matter how much I have tried.
There's my "share" for the day. :-)
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