JimJim

I'm on some Sherry binge.. man, I just want someone to know how much i'm hurting right now. I've chundered all over this here desk and floor. Still swigging this crap down. mMy stomach is in knots. There's snot and all sorts pouring out of me. I reckon I;ll be done for a while when I wake up. I reckon i'll pass out soon.

JimJim

How can a guy put himself in such a way.

JimJim

I dont want any kind waord actually, I just want you to feel this utter flesh ripping self hatred so that I don't have to experience it alone. Pretty selfish. You bet

JimJim

I'll clean up this vomit when I wake from sleeping in it. I'm done here too. I'll cringe in these post im sure when I wake. This self loathing I can;t explain, but I wanna try, man.

Verte

mecanix

Hey Jim,
Sorry to hear how things are with ya, drinking is the pits .

m

Robert777

Hi Jim/Jim, why don't you get to a meeting tomorrow? You don't have to suffer through this alone. You need more support and you will find it in AA. Godspeed.

Stoogy

Hey Jim,
There's nothing we can say that you don't already know really, just want you to know we are thinking of you.

Robert777

Here is a site with all the AA meetings in England,

AA Meetings | Alcoholics Anonymous (Great Britain) Ltd

Just type in your location.

Hevyn

JimJim - You know how much your friends here care about you. I'm heartsick that you're still drinking. There is a way out of this hell Jim. Never give up.

JimJim

It's my ex fiance. God, stupid idea to find this. That beautiful face used to look at me with so much love. She touched me and I felt loved. It's all gone, I'm a dead man.

JimJim

thanks Hev, It's what I needed. Pretty sdelfish yeh. But I'm hurting here.I gotta get out man. I'm convulsing and snotting all on thisn the keyboard here

Jeni26

God Jim...I have no idea what to say to you that I haven't said before. This is torture for those of us who care about you.

I am praying that you have had enough of this real soon, before it's too late.

ReadyAtLast

I'm sorry to hear you're stilldrinking Jim.Tip the rest of the booze away and try and sleep it off.Tomorrow is a new day

Soberpotamus

I hope you can get someone nearby to help you get to a meeting. Wish the best for you! Sounds like an awful place you're in, and most of us here have been in a similar place. Please get some help as soon as possible, to stop.

Nuudawn

Jim it seems that the self hatred really blares in deafening stereo when you're drinking. I imagine that when you first picked up the toxic elixir it actually quieted those voices...but it ain't working anymore buddy. Your liquid friend has crossed over...and now it's just satan cacklin' at ya.
How can you get this ugly smothering clenching beast off your back? Can you haul your drunk self to a detox facility...RFN?

ScottFromWI

You were actuallly posting here last week once when you were sober Jim. I'm not sure if you ever read your previous posts when you sober up or if you are potentially blacked out when you are doing your drunk writing, but you need to.

I mentioned last week that honestly I think you need to get yourself to detox, maybe even via the ER. You are a very intelligent person, but you have an 800 pound gorilla sitting on you that you need to have others help get off. Please consider calling a detox or even 911/heading to the ER if you can't do it yourself. It's getting to be a dire situation for you.

JimJim

God, you're all too kind. I can't reply to you psy individually right now. I'm in hell of a stae. I don't wanna go sleep though, I almost choked on my own vomit last time.

JimJim

Posting here only adds to my guilt. It's not fair. I'm gonna call the Samaritans. I' be gone for now.

Scott I read all the posts I swear, you folks heere are never far from my mind.

Nuudawn

Please call the Samaritans Jim. I'm assuming..by the name...they can get you to a place of help. Call NOW.