Collective thoughts/prayers
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Collective thoughts/prayers
well today I see my lawyer at noon to find out how much trouble I am in.
I haven't slept in days, nightmares out the wazoo. I don't think I have ever been as terrified as I am right now. I just want this over with. My mind (as always) is thinking of the worst case scenerios (jail) and replaying them over and over. Everyone keeps telling me "it'll be ok, have faith"...and man, I am trying, but I also know it isn't looking too good.
If you pray, send me a small one today please.
in other news, one month sober tomorrow.
I haven't slept in days, nightmares out the wazoo. I don't think I have ever been as terrified as I am right now. I just want this over with. My mind (as always) is thinking of the worst case scenerios (jail) and replaying them over and over. Everyone keeps telling me "it'll be ok, have faith"...and man, I am trying, but I also know it isn't looking too good.
If you pray, send me a small one today please.
in other news, one month sober tomorrow.
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Every good wish. Remember, nothing that can happen to you from now on could compare with what could happen if you resume drinking. And the anxiety you feel now would be even greater. It just get worse and worse unless you stop. Get medical help, legal help if necessary and above all, help from other recovering alcoholics, either on this website or in your community. If you continue sobriety things will be O.K. Prayers and good wishes to you.
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drinking is an option that has been removed from the table for me.
Now, I just need to deal with the consequences of my behaviour. Scary as they may be, I feel better knowing I have a huge support system around me both in real life and online. I am excited to start this journey.
My AV can pretty much pi$$ off at this point. Its yelling and screaming will fall on deaf ears if I have anything to say about it! Its brought me nothing but chaos, misery and self destruction. No more. This is the end of the road for me. I'm breaking up with alcohol.
*deep breaths*
Now, I just need to deal with the consequences of my behaviour. Scary as they may be, I feel better knowing I have a huge support system around me both in real life and online. I am excited to start this journey.
My AV can pretty much pi$$ off at this point. Its yelling and screaming will fall on deaf ears if I have anything to say about it! Its brought me nothing but chaos, misery and self destruction. No more. This is the end of the road for me. I'm breaking up with alcohol.
*deep breaths*
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Originally Posted by Jupiters 
Jail. weekends.
awesome.
least I know what I'm facing now. and if this ain't my bottom, well...I'm f*****.
awesome.
least I know what I'm facing now. and if this ain't my bottom, well...I'm f*****.
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Originally Posted by wpainterw
But Jupiter, there's a good side to lots of stuff. You may well find others in the jail who have been sent there just like you. And you may have meetings and conversations with them about what to do about it. You may find lots of mutual support. Some day you may look back and say that that's where your recovery started.
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this is how I am going to look at this "situation". I am going to try and put the best positive spin on it. I made this horrible mistake in judgment and know I have consequences to deal with now. I'll approach this with the outlook that I am supposed to learn from it.
The shock hasn't worn off. I thought I'd get home and break down (I had to go right back to a busy office after the news)...but I didn't. I feel a bit numb. But oddly ok. My family, friends and BF are being beyond supportive which is helping.
Dee - I go to trial Wed June 25th where they will take me into custody then release me later that evening. I will work Thurs/Friday and go back in Friday evening until Sunday afternoon. My lawyer suspects about 4 or 5 weekends, the fact I checked into detox right away and have set up treatment/counselling appts. is going to help get some time knocked off. I didn't want my employers knowing about this. (They know I got a DUI, they do NOT know it was 2nd one and I am doing jail).
That's why I chose weekends. Apparently there is no fine either, just jail.??? THAT floored me. I was expecting a whopper of a fine too, rendering me flat broke but he said "no, you're going to jail"...I hope he was right b.c that made me happy. I keep my job and no fine.
so that's what it is. I will get through this a stronger person. He offered to push it back, so I could do it in the fall when the summer is over...I said "no, I want this over with asap, just get it over with" no point in delaying it.
thanks all for your kind words. I am looking forward to this.I know the breakdown will come, but I also know it will pass.
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