an inch from relapse
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an inch from relapse
Well I arrived at a new hotel. Free happy hour all the booze and food. I was fixated on watching people drinking frosty brews. Got some food and left. My av said just have one you earned it. I was shaking with anxiety and anticipation for a beer. AV said I could just have 1 and I would be fine. It was an internal world war as my better knew I would want to drink4-5 and end of walking to a liquor store for more. I think I am special better because i al because I made it 2months. I am not an alkie like the rest. My av says I am better then everyone. I know how to drink 1 and be fine. My av is a heartless and souless voice that makes me feel entitled to have one and be fine or think I am better then a drunk. Well my more rational mind knows I am not. I need 1 day at a time. I am committed for life but the battle is
One day at a time
I left and went Walmart I will just be doing other things from 5-7pm. I am not better then anyone and belong in my new home in sr.
One day at a time
I left and went Walmart I will just be doing other things from 5-7pm. I am not better then anyone and belong in my new home in sr.
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I'm really glad you thought that through letitgo 
Everything the AV says is a lie. Remember that and you have a great fouindation for recovery.
Plenty of support here too - you can do this
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Everything the AV says is a lie. Remember that and you have a great fouindation for recovery.
Plenty of support here too - you can do this
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Great perspective, well done on riding out that craving!!
For me I have to remind myself all the time that a period of absteinance from alcohol hasn't in some way cured or fixed me, if I have 1 drink today, it still won't be just 1 drink, it'll open the door back to my old ways.
Keep pushing through!!
For me I have to remind myself all the time that a period of absteinance from alcohol hasn't in some way cured or fixed me, if I have 1 drink today, it still won't be just 1 drink, it'll open the door back to my old ways.
Keep pushing through!!
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The further I get in recovery the AA twelve steps make more sense. Becoming prideful and arrogant. Humility really is the key. Don't see myself working the steps at this time but reading through them I can really relate.
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not sure how far into the sober path you are, but I can relate. It does get better. I travel somewhat frequently for work and often find myself in hotels where happy hours and free cocktails rear their heads. At first I struggled with that. It took a lot of work and focus to stay firm in my choice of sobriety.
I'm currently on the road and have been confronted with those situations all week including a friend who didn't realize I don't drink and with whom I'd spent many a drinking weekend in the past offering me a glass of wine in her hotel room..... I've not found it a challenge at all. In fact it's been the most comfortable I have yet been and even spent part of the week chatting openly with a still-drinking friend who openly shared his own journey of evaluation over his drinking patterns with me and expressed respect and admiration for my choice.....
SO anyway; well done. And hang in there with this. It gets easier and better.
I'm currently on the road and have been confronted with those situations all week including a friend who didn't realize I don't drink and with whom I'd spent many a drinking weekend in the past offering me a glass of wine in her hotel room..... I've not found it a challenge at all. In fact it's been the most comfortable I have yet been and even spent part of the week chatting openly with a still-drinking friend who openly shared his own journey of evaluation over his drinking patterns with me and expressed respect and admiration for my choice.....
SO anyway; well done. And hang in there with this. It gets easier and better.
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Originally Posted by cardoon 
Oh yeah! As Nancy Reagan said, " just say no"!
Another member posted this skit in another OP but articulates why Just Saying no is a bit absurd when it comes to addiction. Sorry - I doubt this was your intention in your comment.
Bob Newhart - STOP IT! - YouTube
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Originally Posted by letitgo
AV said I could just have 1 and I would be fine. I think I am special better because i al because I made it 2months. I am not an alkie like the rest. My av says I am better then everyone. I know how to drink 1 and be fine. My av is a heartless and souless voice that makes me feel entitled to have one and be fine or think I am better then a drunk.
Way to ride it out!!!
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Way to go for riding it out!! These situations always made me feel empowered and made each time after that a little easier, becasue I knew I could do it, and I knew how good It made me feel. Well done!!
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