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Old 06-03-2014, 03:53 PM
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I can tell you this: Nothing tragic in my life prompted this, nothing bad or traumatic. In fact, my life has never been better, Yet, I made a clear and conscious decision to get use. Planned and calculated.
I am so glad that you posted.

I hear you on this. I would be lying if I said I never think about drinking and I will be 2 years in July. I do. And sometimes I even plan it in my mind how I would do it. However, I am living with my daughter so I know there is no way I can do it. It's probably the one thing scares me about moving out. I am scared that I will give in to it and do it. Because the truth is I love getting drunk.

And even smoking some pot has entered my mind.

I don't even have to have a bad day in order for these thoughts to enter my mind.

This journey is certainly not easy that is for sure.
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Old 06-03-2014, 04:06 PM
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Old 06-03-2014, 04:13 PM
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Old 06-03-2014, 04:52 PM
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As Ben Hogan used to say after a bad shot, "I just draw the shade" and move forward. With 4 years clean, I hope you can do that and tack on 4 more. Good luck to you..
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Old 06-03-2014, 05:13 PM
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Thanks, Carl.

We are all glad you're here.
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Old 06-03-2014, 05:19 PM
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Carl welcome back and you've done it with such graciousness .

You need not explain , all that matters is that you are here and for that we are all thankful .
Much love , from your sister in sobriety , Snoozy xxx
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Old 06-03-2014, 05:26 PM
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Good to hear from you and that you are back and on the right path...keep going !
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Old 06-03-2014, 05:29 PM
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Old 06-03-2014, 05:33 PM
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Glad you are back Carl.
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Old 06-03-2014, 08:06 PM
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I'm so glad you are back, Carl!
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Old 06-03-2014, 08:22 PM
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Old 06-03-2014, 08:25 PM
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I am on day three and your post if your initial use stuck with me. I kept hoping you would write again. It seems you have made such an impact in others, and I got to see how sincerely people on this site care for each others well being. I am glad you posted and hope you can gain strength from those on this site.
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Old 06-03-2014, 08:48 PM
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Hello Carl,
I wanted to share some things with you, that's what we are all here for. You have a tremendous amount of support on this site, and a good deal of experience. I'll share something with you that may help, that I have learned from the "process". At the meeting that I went to, there were a couple "newbies" there, both had gotten their first DUI/OWI for drunk driving. They were not court ordered, but their counselors had suggested they may get something from a meeting. I could tell from their questions that we'll never see them again, they were putting their toes in the water so to speak. They were not sure that they had a problem etc. etc. etc. same place I was when I first tried to get sober, and take control of my life. I explained to them how it progresses, and they may drink one Saturday morning when they feel fabulous, even after working through all of the steps and getting their heads back on straight. We hope it doesn't, but it does.
When we slip and it doesn't matter why, the sky is blue, the sun came up, we lost a job....doesn't matter. So you've been doing everything right, and helping many,many people on this site. You know how it feels on the sober side, and how important it is to take care of yourself. Just throwing some things out there. Having the knowledge in your pocket, to be able to share that with others here on this site is a huge gift. What everyone here has been saying is "We are here for you, like you've been here for so many in the past. Those newbies I talked about, they don't have that knowledge in their pockets yet, they may never have. Celebrate you new Day 1, and welcome back.
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Old 06-03-2014, 09:53 PM
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Welcome back, Carl. I'm glad you're here.
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Old 06-03-2014, 10:14 PM
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Welcome back Carl. You openness and honesty will be helping someone else recovery as well as your own. I'm glad you're here. I'm truly wishing you well.
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Old 06-03-2014, 10:26 PM
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Just so glad that you are back on board fella.
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Old 06-03-2014, 10:33 PM
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Carl -

Thank you for showing us how to embrace our path with resiliency and courage. Glad you are here.
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Old 06-03-2014, 10:45 PM
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Welcome back (((Carl))). Your honest is inspiring. Thank you!!
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Old 06-03-2014, 11:38 PM
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You have helped me in the past with your wisdom and experience, by your written words. Your honesty and sharing amazes me, too. You have helped me stay sober this very day. Thank you very much for being here on SR.
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Old 06-03-2014, 11:49 PM
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Carl...I'm sure no one expects you to share until when or if you are ready. All I can say when I have slipped, it takes time to just process what the hell happened, coupled with the fact I'm sure our brains are still recovering from being zapped from nowhere again.

Take your time to process this.
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