After a year of teeter tottering....
 

After a year (or more) of investigating if I can drink like a normie and manage my life, I have finally quit digging. My desire to stay sober is stronger than my desire to drink. I feel solid about this. I have a sponsor and a home group. It's time to get further into action. No more investigating. My affair with alcohol is over. I know I have said it before, but it has taken me every drop I have consumed to get here. And I'm pumped to let the past go!

Welcome back - it sounds like you are definitely on the right path as your name would suggest! Glad to hear you have a solid foundation started locally for support, and hope you can find what you need here on SR as well.

Glad to hear it, OTRP. So, today is Day 1?

Good luck. Keep posting and let us know how things are going. :ring

Today is my day one as well after another relapse. This time will be different. It has to be different. Good luck in your journey!

Hi ontherightpath. I concluded my investigation about 6 yrs. ago, after 30 years of research. :( Wish it hadn't taken me so long to see what you're seeing now. :) Congratulations.

I'm glad you've decided on a sober life. It's so much better. :)

I wasn't a particularly good researcher. I kept repeating the same experiment.

I recall finding the decision to separate from alcohol liberating

Way to go!! You sound very positive and motivated!

Yes, today is day 1. The last day 1. My higher power is with me. My resolve is strong.

Sounds like a great decision!! It all starts with a Day 1!!

You can do this!! :)

way to go!!!

Day Two today, OTRP? How are you feeling? Keep on keeping on. :ushup:

Yay OTRP!! It's a great feeling to know the question is asked and answered, never to be revisited again.

Yes day 2. I am currently packing as I am going on a weekend trip with my husband and his coworkers. Im being gentle on myself and having some realistic fears about this trip. But I have checked out meeting times and places. I have a script for Ativan if my anxiety gets out of control. I am trying not to project too far into the future. Just asking for guidance at every juncture.

I am more scared of being home alone tomorrow night than I am being away for the weekend. But I keep telling myself that the trip would be horrendous if I started it out hungover. And I want to show up merely jet lagged, not useless. Lol

Anyways, things are well in the big scheme of things. I'm gonna hit a meeting here in a little bit.

Glad you're committed to a better life! Keep on keepin' on!

Congrats!

Thanks . I can't do it on my own though. I need u people. And I need to stay close to aa. The closest meeting to my hotel is 3 min by car. Have the address saved in my phone. <-- the next right thing

And is it wrong that I am fantasizing sitting in my room, with my phone and a book. After a hot
Shower? Haha.... Unreal. Most hotel stays mean let's get wasted! Use the corridor walls to keep my upright as I stumble back to my room. Not remembering turning the lights on or off and passing out on the worlds comfiest pillows? Sounds like fun?????? Nope. But it's what I am used too, so this is already making me a bit uncomfortable. ((Honest))

Ontherightpath...you can do this! You are doing this.

Hold on tight to your visions of today :) Sober.

:grouphug:

Day Three, OTRP? Hoping for a happy update from you. :herewego