dun

I am sick and tired of alcohol and its ability to run my life, completely take over. With nothing but crap in return from it. I am embarrassed that I allow it to have this much control over me,and the things that I do while using. I hate it will all of my being, and then, I go right back. And then justify and lie for it, it is simply unreal. I hate that I have this disease, I hate that I love drugs and alcohol, I hate that if I dont get control I will die. I hate that I have to put in all of the work for recovery that other people dont have to.

I guess its time to quit, too much hatred.

Dee74

Welcome back Dun
You absolutely can leave it behind

what's your plan?

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dun

I had good success only being partially committed to AA, last time I quit. 15 months.

SR is always the first place I go, then I think AA is a must while completing the plan.

Any suggestions?

LBrain

I guess partial commitment is not enough. The thing is this. Were you partially committed to AA or were you partially committed to sobriety?

Until to you commit to yourself, regardless of which path you choose, you are destined to get lost on the way.

Thepatman

I agree with Lbrain. The few last time I failed I was 90% committed looking back.

Now at 4 days I'm giving it my all. If I don't I will end up at the same place, back on a freakin binge vomiting bile and .... Blood.

You can do this!

least

I'm glad you're back, giving it another go.