Day 8
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Day 8
I went to a meeting last night and found a sponsor. I am happy about it, but scared at the same time. I know the last time I attempted the steps with a sponsor, I tripped hard over step 4 and tumbled all the way back down to step 1 and stayed there for many years. It's hard to take a "fearless" moral inventory, especially for an alcoholic. I have been consumed by fear and anger my entire life, not really fearless about anything, especially taking a long, hard look at myself. Very frightening concept to me. I know this is something I must do ... I have to be willing to do whatever it takes to quit drinking. And I AM willing ... I have to be. I cannot go back. I WILL not go back. No more "day 1" for me.
Onward ...
Onward ...
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Hey Holly, yeap Sobriety is a scary thing, especially when all we've known for years is drinking, that's our comfort zone and that's what we've been used to.
Great to hear the meeting went well, onward to Day 9!!
Great to hear the meeting went well, onward to Day 9!!
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Keep going hokey Holly.
I recall a guy told me to not get so consumed by step 4 right away. Just do a simple step 4. Don't be overwhelmed by it. Eventually more and more will begin to reveal itself to you.
If you start out thinking you have to complete EVERYTHING right away, it will deter you from making progress. Baby steps to start out. Eventually things will be jumping at you.
I don't know how old you are or how long you've been at it. But consider having 35 years of s*** behind you. We can't possibly get it all in the first shot, or even the second. Do what you can and YOU feel comfortable with. It's a start.
Just doing just that may expose other thoughts you might have.
I recall a guy told me to not get so consumed by step 4 right away. Just do a simple step 4. Don't be overwhelmed by it. Eventually more and more will begin to reveal itself to you.
If you start out thinking you have to complete EVERYTHING right away, it will deter you from making progress. Baby steps to start out. Eventually things will be jumping at you.
I don't know how old you are or how long you've been at it. But consider having 35 years of s*** behind you. We can't possibly get it all in the first shot, or even the second. Do what you can and YOU feel comfortable with. It's a start.
Just doing just that may expose other thoughts you might have.
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Originally Posted by hokey 
I went to a meeting last night and found a sponsor. I am happy about it, but scared at the same time. I know the last time I attempted the steps with a sponsor, I tripped hard over step 4 and tumbled all the way back down to step 1 and stayed there for many years. It's hard to take a "fearless" moral inventory, especially for an alcoholic. I have been consumed by fear and anger my entire life, not really fearless about anything, especially taking a long, hard look at myself. Very frightening concept to me. I know this is something I must do ... I have to be willing to do whatever it takes to quit drinking. And I AM willing ... I have to be. I cannot go back. I WILL not go back. No more "day 1" for me.
Onward ...
Onward ...
You are on your way.
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