rachelle77

Hello. I have been a hard drinker for almost 20 years. Over the past year I have tried several times to get sober. First time around I did three months, and that felt amazing! That was also the first time I discovered this site. I didn't join, but just reading the posts helped me to feel less alone with this problem. I had a really scary binge last week that resulted in my vomiting for twelve hours. Scariest feeling of my life! I immediately joined this forum and hope to start physically attending meetings when I regain my strength.

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum!! you'll find loads of support here!!

HeadLump

Welcome to SR, rachelle and congratulations on making the decision to join!

Vomiting for 12 hours must be totally exhausting as well as frightening. Take plenty of water and have lots of rest, but please seek medical help if it continues.

It's good to have you on board

GwenCummings

Welcome. You have made a big step by finally posting on here. Build on that and join a very cool team here.

Dee74

Hi and welcome Rachelle

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rachelle77

Thanks everyone. I can already feel the support from this community. So many people have so many interesting stories to share, and everyone seems very respectful and supportive.
I am having a lot of problems with depression today and strong feelings of shame over my behavior last week. I know these feelings come with the territory of drinking, at least for me, but I wonder what other people have to say about it.
And while I am drinking plenty of water today, I feel like it's all coming out through what feels like thousands of tears coming out of my eyes.

SigChiScooby

Welcome Rachelle and good luck in your journey! I hope you get feeling better soon!

SigChiScooby

The depression and shame will go away the longer you stay sober. In the nicest way possible just remember how horrible you feel now and think about it the next time you might have a craving or be tempted to drink. Thats one thing that helps me stay sober.

Hevyn

Glad to meet you Rachelle - you're never alone - there's always someone here to listen and help.

rachelle77

Thanks, SigChiScooby. I have suffered from depression years before I started drinking, but drinking definitely did make it worse. When I did those three months sober, my anxiety greatly increased and was put on anti-anxiety meds. I know my drinking has greatly exacerbated both problems and that my getting sober will make these feelings very intense and real. At least I can now learn healthy ways of coping to get a handle on these issues. In the meantime, it all feels very overwhelming.

rachelle77

That's a great Emerson quote, Hevyn!

Hevyn

Yes! It really helped me straighten myself out.