Day Four
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Day Four
It's a wonder we ever do this, but I can't say I'm totally over cravings and stuff. I haven't picked up though.
The last three days were extremely productive. Gone were the bouts of anxiety, the fast heart beat that I never knew was withdrawal, alcohol induced or just paranoia, no more lying in bed alternating between consciousness, drunkenness and aimless surfing. I have a ton of energy and drive. Most of all, I'm not depressed or feeling guilty. I'm also having coffee for the first time. I was afraid during the first three dangerous days, this might trigger tachycardia since I'm sure my body is off. Mostly today, I'm just thankful that the morning isn't starting with beer or wine and me wondering when I'm going to have to make the next run to the store and excuse myself.
I'm still not super confident I'll never turn back. I still miss the feeling of a buzz at night. I don't miss the all day drunken stupor, but relaxing with two glasses of wine at dinner? I'm not doing too well in that category. Still fantasizing about it.
The last three days were extremely productive. Gone were the bouts of anxiety, the fast heart beat that I never knew was withdrawal, alcohol induced or just paranoia, no more lying in bed alternating between consciousness, drunkenness and aimless surfing. I have a ton of energy and drive. Most of all, I'm not depressed or feeling guilty. I'm also having coffee for the first time. I was afraid during the first three dangerous days, this might trigger tachycardia since I'm sure my body is off. Mostly today, I'm just thankful that the morning isn't starting with beer or wine and me wondering when I'm going to have to make the next run to the store and excuse myself.
I'm still not super confident I'll never turn back. I still miss the feeling of a buzz at night. I don't miss the all day drunken stupor, but relaxing with two glasses of wine at dinner? I'm not doing too well in that category. Still fantasizing about it.
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Great job on four days.
Isn't great not to wake up, or I should say regain consciousness, and not suffer those horrible feelings?
You described mine perfectly. I lived like that for twenty years.
I romanticized about a few drinks. Even tried it. Never worked. In short order I was back to being a full time drunk.
If you can do it, more power to you, but for me it's complete abstinence, one day at a time.
Isn't great not to wake up, or I should say regain consciousness, and not suffer those horrible feelings?
You described mine perfectly. I lived like that for twenty years.
I romanticized about a few drinks. Even tried it. Never worked. In short order I was back to being a full time drunk.
If you can do it, more power to you, but for me it's complete abstinence, one day at a time.
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Weekends are harder for me in different ways. It's not so much that I have a party lifestyle, or am invited to lots of events. But somehow, on the weekends, I felt less guilty going full on at 1 or so. Oh, of course, I'd start nipping at 8 a.m., but by 1, all bets were off, because it's the weekend and everyone's doing it.
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Originally Posted by getmeoffthisbus 
Weekends are harder for me in different ways. It's not so much that I have a party lifestyle, or am invited to lots of events. But somehow, on the weekends, I felt less guilty going full on at 1 or so. Oh, of course, I'd start nipping at 8 a.m., but by 1, all bets were off, because it's the weekend and everyone's doing it.
I, too, would have started at 8am and drank throughout the day.
I just try and keep myself occupied. Went to the library today.
It's tough, but you can do it. I'm rooting for you.
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