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Hi everyone! I'm Alley. I got real stinkin' drunk last night and went kind of psycho hose beast on my now ex boyfriend. I used to be a lot of fun as a drunk, but I now realize that I have completely lost control. Every time I drink, I do something dumb. I make a fool out of myself, make out with too many people, do coke, lose my phone, spend hundreds of dollars, break my ankle, talk too much, act like a complete bastard to those I love most, fall on my stupid face and end up in the ER...the list goes on. Also, I'm 31 so it's not super "cute".
I'm miserable and sad and thanks to my antics, now alone. I feel like such a jerk and I am going to start outpatient treatment tomorrow. I have no idea what's going on, I'm terrified. Sooooo....hi!
I'm miserable and sad and thanks to my antics, now alone. I feel like such a jerk and I am going to start outpatient treatment tomorrow. I have no idea what's going on, I'm terrified. Sooooo....hi!
Welcome Alley Kat - many of us ended up here after nights like that.
The important thing is you made it here, and you never have to feel like this again.
There's a lot of support and hope here - glad you found us
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The important thing is you made it here, and you never have to feel like this again.
There's a lot of support and hope here - glad you found us
D
Glad to meet you Alleykat.
This place saved my life - I was so alone and miserable until I came here. No one in my life understood what I was going through. You're getting help at a young age - many of us continued for decades longer. You'll be avoiding so much pain by dealing with your addiction now. We're happy you're here.
This place saved my life - I was so alone and miserable until I came here. No one in my life understood what I was going through. You're getting help at a young age - many of us continued for decades longer. You'll be avoiding so much pain by dealing with your addiction now. We're happy you're here.
Hi everyone! I'm Alley. I got real stinkin' drunk last night and went kind of psycho hose beast on my now ex boyfriend. I used to be a lot of fun as a drunk, but I now realize that I have completely lost control. Every time I drink, I do something dumb. I make a fool out of myself, make out with too many people, do coke, lose my phone, spend hundreds of dollars, break my ankle, talk too much, act like a complete bastard to those I love most, fall on my stupid face and end up in the ER...the list goes on. Also, I'm 31 so it's not super "cute". I'm miserable and sad and thanks to my antics, now alone. I feel like such a jerk and I am going to start outpatient treatment tomorrow. I have no idea what's going on, I'm terrified. Sooooo....hi!
Word, Ally. I'm 33 and when I was in my late 20s, I thought being the lush of the group was just who I was. I can't tell you how many dangerous and just dumb things I did when I was drinking. One night, I earned the nickname The Instigator. Thaw was 5 years ago and I still don't know what happened. I just know that a good friend of mine's face ended up on a brick pillar and I was somehow involved.
My 30s are turning out to be so much more enjoyable. I've gotten the chance to meet myself for the first time in a long time and get to know that person. Now, I no longer feel like I have to be the wild, hard drinking, smack my butt, lemme go kiss this gal lush of the group. I'm still a lot of fun and I'm still the goober my friends love. They're just not picking me up off the floor and explaining what happened when I sobered up. Win-win!
My 30s are turning out to be so much more enjoyable. I've gotten the chance to meet myself for the first time in a long time and get to know that person. Now, I no longer feel like I have to be the wild, hard drinking, smack my butt, lemme go kiss this gal lush of the group. I'm still a lot of fun and I'm still the goober my friends love. They're just not picking me up off the floor and explaining what happened when I sobered up. Win-win!
Word, Ally. I'm 33 and when I was in my late 20s, I thought being the lush of the group was just who I was. I can't tell you how many dangerous and just dumb things I did when I was drinking. One night, I earned the nickname The Instigator. Thaw was 5 years ago and I still don't know what happened. I just know that a good friend of mine's face ended up on a brick pillar and I was somehow involved. My 30s are turning out to be so much more enjoyable. I've gotten the chance to meet myself for the first time in a long time and get to know that person. Now, I no longer feel like I have to be the wild, hard drinking, smack my butt, lemme go kiss this gal lush of the group. I'm still a lot of fun and I'm still the goober my friends love. They're just not picking me up off the floor and explaining what happened when I sobered up. Win-win!
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I don't want to be the party monster anymore! It's emotionally exhausting. I think I will still be fun, but there is no way I will continue to be as bold as I have been. *cringes while remembering last night*
Welcome Alleykat! Im 32 and can definitely relate to your story! I hope you find peace and a new sober way of living. I currently have 77 days sober and am loving life! It is definitely worth it to put the drink down. I didn't say its easy, but I did say its worth it!
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