ontherightpath

When my hubs utters the words "are u drinking?"
When my children fight and I hear "moooommmmm"
When I walk into the basement and see a glass from a previous attempt at controlling it.
It sends me to a place I never want to revisit. Ever.
I'm scared of the consequences.
I'm glad to be sober today.
I'm having a hard time with my kids bickering with each other and it makes me want to crawl out of my skin.
We just had a serious rainfall and I'm worried about seepage in the basement. My backyard is flooded. I just want to sleep. I want to take a nap. But I can't, so instead of dwelling, it's time to get into action.

Thanks for listening

least

Good for you for staying sober today.

zombiegirl

We all have those moments the trick is to not let it get to u xxx

Raider

I understand.

Dee74

I'm glad you're sober ontherightpath

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Anna

Taking action is the best choice.

ontherightpath

Ahhhh, so far the basement is dry, I skimmed the pool, went to the store, made dinner, washed dishes and put away some laundry. I'm not craving or even wanting a drink. I just hate those flashbacks of the feelings that accompany the glass I saw in the basement. They aren't attractive feelings, they make me angry. Ughhhh.

Anyways, bedtime for the kids..... I can't wait for quiet time around here! Right now, I need quiet time and deep breaths.....

leviathan

Do u have any healthy rewards in place? Chocolate is healthy. -at least thats what i tell myself! LOL!

ontherightpath

Jelly beans!!! Gummy bears! But a lemon loaf cake is the top prize!!! Bought one tonight. Had a slice and it was phenom!

At this point idc about the calories or the fiber (or lack thereof)..... I'm sober and that's what matters most.

360shoes

I did the same darn thing ontherightpath in the beginning!

I found that if I could make it past about 7 o'clock I was going to be okay. Everyone has their witching hours I think. But what I learned was it passes. For me, it always passed anyway. It wasn't all that much fun between 5 and 7 but I lived. I didn't hold off on the reward part very well though. I hit the pint of ice cream hard and fast between 5 and 7. And again, I was okay. That leveled off all on its own too.

Now, about 15 months later. I just get a quick reaction to something new that will cause just a brief thought to do what I always did before when something caused me to feel nervous or scared. Not often but once in a great while. I just chalk it up to brain rewiring. It's all good.

Great job handling all the things you handled without going for a drink. That is awesome! Keep going. You are doing great. And enjoy the treats. The lemon loaf cake sounds fabulous. Enjoy!

Ruby2

I can understand the issues with kids bickering. It drives me insane. In my own experience I've found that a lot of it is sibling rivalry and some of it is because I was so detached and stuck in the bottle instead of paying them attention that they were fighting to get attention from me and are having a hard time breaking the pattern now that I've been sober.

Once I started paying attention and showed them that I was listening they settled down a lot more. Still not perfect but they are five and eight and are always fighting over who sits where in the back seat of the car. Progress, not perfection.

Hang in there.

zombiegirl

I have to have cold drinks in the fridge and then once it gets past 9.30 n i have a hot chocolate in hand I know I will be ok.
I'm loving toffee tarts from my local supermarket as they are worth the wait on a Saturday.
Good luck with it all we are all in this together x

acutelyacerbic

I tend to drink cold sugary drinks myself as a replacement. I think rewarding and praising yourself is important when you make it through the night, week, whatever timescale you set. It is important to acknowledge your victories
xxx

dSober

Here's a real good place to start:

Alcoholics Anonymous : Local Resources that provide A.A. Meeting Information (U.S./Canada)