CuteNGayYay

You STILL had 24 days. Good on you man. Dust yourself off ..you're back.

Skotyb

This ain't the first second third!!!???etc

I was soooooo happy till yesterday afternoon

Just let myself down and you guys !!
I will learn from it, like always

I was Rollin , I was clean
I was in the groove

Friends daughter confirmation
An old drinking partner.... I said I had health issues
And couldn't drink !! It was all good

Than I tried to socially have a beer
It was gross ,... Didn't finish it
Felt ****** for even having a sip

I'm on day 23 I don't need it
I'm happy I'm losing weight
I'm not smoking for 23 day aswell

Than had quad Rye and coke
And 2 more ... Still fine
I'm a social drinker now!! Lol

Nope

Got off work today after that night
And HALT all of them kicked me
AV DROVE ME TO A OLD HAUNT

Free drinks and ooooold regulars at the pub

Never felt good
Guilty with each sip / chug

I know what's going to be said
Come back .. You went 23 days
Learn from Ur mistakes
Welcome back!!! Yack and blah

I'm a fake
My old posts r **** now
I has so much hope
I had so much passion
I said and believed good things the last month

I should of posted AV WAS KICKIN MY ASS AGAIN
But didn't want to bother u people !!
I know it's not a bother but AV HAD ME
I should of posted it again


This is a ****** feeling
Yes I'm drunk right now
I'm off to bed cause I have to work in morning
I can't take back the last 24 hours
I can't be At 25 days
I'm now back to night before day 1

This frickin sucks !!!
I'm soooo sorry Scott
That I gave in
You deserve more than this druken sleep
And shirty day Ur going to have tomorrow

My words mean nothing now on SR
I TALKED a great game
Enthusiastic enjoyment of sober life
Tossed down the drain

Because of HALT

I FORGIVE MYSELF
But I let u guys down

I might start SR AGIAN
Under a different name as to clean this slate again!!

I really need to surround myself with a group of like minded
People!! Cause u can't do this on your own

Good bye may 3 rd
Hello May 27!!! Day 1 in 6 hours

Thanks for listening
And the forgiving posts

$&@?

Sulu1

Don't beat yourself up skotyb, we've all been there. Hell if quitting drinking was easy none of us would be here! 24 days is immense! Don't let a one day relapse get you down. Try and learn from it if you can. Get right back on that horse.

CuteNGayYay

I've had SEVERALLLLLL attempts.. (most do) trust. I'm on Day 9. The fact that you are back is ALL THAT MATTERS. I know the feelings your feeling right now though..

Dee74

Wow you're really beating yourself up there Skotyb - that kind of self hatred drove me back to the bottle not away from it.

You made a few bad decisions - own it, learn from it, get over it and get back on the right road.

This is hard - everyone understands. I made similar mistakes.

No need to start again under a different name at all - that's just silly.

just...stop the self flagellation and get back to it Skoty

D

doggonecarl

You don't have to rejoin with a new name. All you have to do to clean the slate is stop bashing yourself and put down the drink.

Nonsensical

If I did that every time I face planted I'd have at least 10 screen names. My problem wasn't my screen name. My problem was me.

DisplacedGRITS

Hey Skotyb. If i may make a suggestion, don't bother with a new screen name. You say it's to have a clean slate but does a new name erase your past? None of us here are perfect. Many of us have tripped and fallen flat. We fell off the wagon and got run over a few times to boot. Many, like myself, have done this multiple times. We don't get a clean slate. What we do get is an opportunity to get back up and move forward, older and wiser than we just were. We can't learn from the past by attempting to erase it. All we can do is make amends and not be shackled by our mistakes.

Sobriety does not change our relationship with alcohol. What it does is open up the avenue to allow us to pursue a new relationship with it. Our old relationship doesn't go away. That path will always be there. Sobriety just gives us the choice to not take that path. I know that should I take up with alcohol again, I will end up right back where I left off. This is an ultimate truth in my life. All I can do is continue to make life choices that continue me down my sober path. As I journey though life, there will be many forks in the road. By sticking to my sober principles, the path will be laid clear before me. It will not always be an easy decision and it certainly not always be the easier path, but it will be the path I can live with, not the one that will destroy me.

Stick around and open yourself up to an honest life. Our mistakes are there for us to learn from, not to hold us back. Share what your mistakes have taught you with others looking for sobriety, so that they will have the opportunity to learn from your mistakes as well.

IWLSAST

Hey Skotyb,

Reading through this thread reminded me of the daily reflection from the aa mtg i attended yesterday.

Hey, I'm not pitching aa, just offering a thought.

TURNING NEGATIVE TO POSITIVE

Our spiritual and emotional growth in A.A. does not depend so deeply upon success as it does upon our failures and setbacks. If you will bear this in mind, I think that your slip will have the effect of kicking you upstairs, instead of down,

AS BILL SEES IT, p. 184

In keeping with the pain and adversity which our founders encountered and overcame in establishing A.A., Bill W. sent us a clear message: a relapse can provide a positive experience toward abstinence and a lifetime of recovery. A relapse brings truth to what we hear repeatedly in meetings – "Don't take that first drink!" It reinforces the belief in the progressive nature of the disease, and it drives home the need for, and beauty of, humility in our spiritual program. Simple truths come in complicated ways to me when I become ego driven.

From the book Daily Reflections
© Copyright 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.