had 10 days
 

Damnit i had 10 days and gave in to the av last night. Im beyond upset with myself and embarassed. I did so well and now this. Im getting back on the wagon tho. Im NOT giving up on me. Others might but i wont.

I'm sorry that the AV got the best of you, but it's great you came right back here. I'm thinking of you and know you can do this!

Ad thing is i felt guilty during the whole night every sip and still kept going. That AV is a b *'*** but im not giving up. Before bed i wrote myself a note and taped it to my big book. Words of encouragement, nice reading it this morning. Its lije the old me slipped out long enough to do that at least.

Good for you for jumping back on the wagon. It took me many attempts before it finally took. I remember how proud I was several years ago when I made it 28 days, a year later when I made it 40+ days and last year when I made it to nearly 100 days. Tomorrow will be five months. Keep at it Christimc, you can do this! Keep in mind, it does get easier with time so don't give up before the miracle happens!

Just start at day 1 again and don't be to hard on yourself.

No question, a lot of bad words come to mind when I think of my AV! Last time I gave in after 3 months sober, it took me over a year to come back here. You are awesome for coming back right away and making a plan to move forward.

Sounds like you learned something valuable christimc. You'll be even more determined now.

Thanks guys and yes i learned some things and i will be close b SR

Welcome back to Day1 Christimc...is the situation you found yourself in last night something that you can avoid at all costs going forward?

It is hard. Keep moving (stick around here though):)

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Start again. This isn't easy. I've been back to day 1 many times- mad, sad, sick and frustrated. I'm done for good and today is day 8 for me. Keep posting when you feel the need to give in, take a walk, but don't take a sip. It isn't worth it. I just finished a book by Jason Vale called Kick the Drink Easily. It made a huge impact on my view of alcohol and how society romanticizes this legal drug, alcohol. I wish you the best with your journey.

Christimc, you know you can do it, and so does everyone here, rootin for ya. :egypt:

Ty! And yes, could've avoided that sittuation last night. I will at all costs not put myself there again. Thats my promise to my body and my spirit.

Welcome back Christi :)

Not putting yourself in those situations again is a good idea :)
do you have any other ideas right now on how to get to permanent recovery?

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Im gonna keep working the steps and continue my meetings. I also gt a sponsor so ill be taking full advantage of that this time

I hope this is your final day one. :hug: