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Join Date: May 2014
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Saw the Gastro man yesterday and got my recent round of blood work results and my CT scan results. I was so nervous that it was going to be bad news. I have abused my body very severely.
However, He walked in with a smile! I had already seen my specimen results and knew why he was smiling. My CBC went up from 28 to 100. And liver function markers have dropped dramatically and are almost normal. He anticipates that all vitals will be normal with in two months if I continue to abstain.
31 days sober and some much improvement. He is very optimistic.
Cat scan showed that my spleen is slightly inflamed but he said that was normal during this process and that too will return to normal shortly. No marks, lumps or scarring on the liver. No fatty liver disease.
I'm very lucky. This was certainly a wake up call.
I'm more motivated than ever to continue on this path!
Is it bad that the specialist is so attractive I want to eat bits of glass just to have an excuse to go back sooner? J/K. He's a great doctor though. I hope everyone who meets with a specialist receives the same kind of treatment. It makes the whole process easier.
Stay sober, my friends!
However, He walked in with a smile! I had already seen my specimen results and knew why he was smiling. My CBC went up from 28 to 100. And liver function markers have dropped dramatically and are almost normal. He anticipates that all vitals will be normal with in two months if I continue to abstain.
31 days sober and some much improvement. He is very optimistic.
Cat scan showed that my spleen is slightly inflamed but he said that was normal during this process and that too will return to normal shortly. No marks, lumps or scarring on the liver. No fatty liver disease.
I'm very lucky. This was certainly a wake up call.
I'm more motivated than ever to continue on this path!
Is it bad that the specialist is so attractive I want to eat bits of glass just to have an excuse to go back sooner? J/K. He's a great doctor though. I hope everyone who meets with a specialist receives the same kind of treatment. It makes the whole process easier.
Stay sober, my friends!
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Originally Posted by PayingTheTaxMan 
Saw the Gastro man yesterday and got my recent round of blood work results and my CT scan results. I was so nervous that it was going to be bad news. I have abused my body very severely.
However, He walked in with a smile! I had already seen my specimen results and knew why he was smiling. My CBC went up from 28 to 100. And liver function markers have dropped dramatically and are almost normal. He anticipates that all vitals will be normal with in two months if I continue to abstain.
31 days sober and some much improvement. He is very optimistic.
Cat scan showed that my spleen is slightly inflamed but he said that was normal during this process and that too will return to normal shortly. No marks, lumps or scarring on the liver. No fatty liver disease.
I'm very lucky. This was certainly a wake up call.
I'm more motivated than ever to continue on this path!
Is it bad that the specialist is so attractive I want to eat bits of glass just to have an excuse to go back sooner? J/K. He's a great doctor though. I hope everyone who meets with a specialist receives the same kind of treatment. It makes the whole process easier.
Stay sober, my friends!
However, He walked in with a smile! I had already seen my specimen results and knew why he was smiling. My CBC went up from 28 to 100. And liver function markers have dropped dramatically and are almost normal. He anticipates that all vitals will be normal with in two months if I continue to abstain.
31 days sober and some much improvement. He is very optimistic.
Cat scan showed that my spleen is slightly inflamed but he said that was normal during this process and that too will return to normal shortly. No marks, lumps or scarring on the liver. No fatty liver disease.
I'm very lucky. This was certainly a wake up call.
I'm more motivated than ever to continue on this path!
Is it bad that the specialist is so attractive I want to eat bits of glass just to have an excuse to go back sooner? J/K. He's a great doctor though. I hope everyone who meets with a specialist receives the same kind of treatment. It makes the whole process easier.
Stay sober, my friends!
Fabulous news my friend, delighted for you.
Down The Rabbit Hole and Back
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Join Date: May 2014
Location: Canada
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Originally Posted by LBrain
great news taxman. Now, do you understand what you must do? And why?
Keep it going, you are on your way to health. Mind and body.
Keep it going, you are on your way to health. Mind and body.
Now that I'm on the road to better health...the fear is subsiding. I don't want to get stuck on the mentality of "one drink won't hurt....or this one night because it's ABC's birthday will be OK." That's going to bring me back down the rabbit hole.
Being an alcoholic is like sharing a body with another person. Sober me would spend hours upon hours telling myself that I don't want to feel like this, physically or mentally. So, drinking me would sneak in with her logic. "Just have a drink or two and you'll feel better." "We can do this together, we'll start cutting back." "We'll start tomorrow" "You don't have a problem" "People drink way more than you and are fine."
So much easier to give in to that voice because it was right. The aches would stop, the shakiness would go away and I'd "feel" better. But at the same time, I watched sober me slink away in to a corner and sulk. She knew I didn't want to be here. She told me "the person who tells you that you'll start tomorrow is the person who is going to kill you." Check mate, sober me.
Mute you go on.
Shame and pride are a hard thing to over come.
I had enough the night of the epic nose bleed. My fiancee asked why I insisted on an ambulance and not him driving me. I needed to commit. Once the ambulance was called...they were coming. No backing out.
I've smashed the mute button on sober me. She will never be silenced again. Drinking me has her button duct taped down so she can't talk. I see her though...sneaking up behind me and I know what she wants. Sometimes I want it to. It's only been 33 days...I'm going to go through some really tough days but the choice is obvious. Life.
My network is amazing. I've been honest about my desire for a glass of wine here or there. I find talking about it when I get the urge helps me to stay away. I know my fiancee is not going to let me have a drink and he continually reinforces how positive the decisions I"ve made are.
It's going to be a battle but I have to be strong and not be afraid to get help when I feel like I could fail.
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