I can't believe myself!
Magsie
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Join Date: Oct 2013
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I can't believe myself!
I shouldn't be surprised, really, should I?
Been travelling and arrived an hour or so ago to Puerto Pollensa in Majorca, a sleepy, pretty, little quaint fishing village, or was!
Since yesterday I've convinced myself I'm in control now, I've done it, I can socialise, just like millions of other people without falling over, puking, memory loss and embarrassment.
I've done it, I've recovered and can go out on holiday and have a glass or too, I'm a grown woman, sensible, sober! Yes, that's where it'll hit me, I won't be sober, will I, I'll enjoy a glass of, with my meal then the next day a few more until the end of the week, hoorah Henry!
Marriage up the spout, he's given me too many chances, self esteem none existent once again, blotto, blotto,blotto, in the usual fog for the rest of my days.
Ugh, or I could just go out for a meal and have my usual, tonic water with lime juice, a dash of. I won't get the kick from the booze but I will get a thrill from looking over the beach and sea and I will remember it, it's called living, my friends.
Thanks SR Friends, had to get that off my chest, just when I think I'm getting there a humongous obstacle with spikes in prods at me.you guys helped me through that, love ya all xx Mags soaking up the sun, no it's warmer in Lincolnshire than here at the moment.a big fat lol xx
Been travelling and arrived an hour or so ago to Puerto Pollensa in Majorca, a sleepy, pretty, little quaint fishing village, or was!
Since yesterday I've convinced myself I'm in control now, I've done it, I can socialise, just like millions of other people without falling over, puking, memory loss and embarrassment.
I've done it, I've recovered and can go out on holiday and have a glass or too, I'm a grown woman, sensible, sober! Yes, that's where it'll hit me, I won't be sober, will I, I'll enjoy a glass of, with my meal then the next day a few more until the end of the week, hoorah Henry!
Marriage up the spout, he's given me too many chances, self esteem none existent once again, blotto, blotto,blotto, in the usual fog for the rest of my days.
Ugh, or I could just go out for a meal and have my usual, tonic water with lime juice, a dash of. I won't get the kick from the booze but I will get a thrill from looking over the beach and sea and I will remember it, it's called living, my friends.
Thanks SR Friends, had to get that off my chest, just when I think I'm getting there a humongous obstacle with spikes in prods at me.you guys helped me through that, love ya all xx Mags soaking up the sun, no it's warmer in Lincolnshire than here at the moment.a big fat lol xx
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Mags, I think it takes a while to learn to enjoy so much without alcohol. If you're in Majorca on vacation, there's so much to see and do and taste! Great food! As the day moves on, find a nice ramblas or maybe a little plaza and have a nice iced tea with lemon and honey.
If you time it right, you can catch a dinner place before the price switches over from lunch and enjoy a nice fish and chips! We have to learn to enjoy these simple things in life without complicating the heck of it with alcohol!
Love from Lenina
If you time it right, you can catch a dinner place before the price switches over from lunch and enjoy a nice fish and chips! We have to learn to enjoy these simple things in life without complicating the heck of it with alcohol!
Love from Lenina
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Dear Mags,
Holidays are a toughie, that's for sure, on the way to sobriety.
Please hold strong, it's just another obstacle that, once got over, will make you realize how much this hard work is so worth it!
You will indeed so much appreciate with all your senses, all the wonderful things there are to enjoy in your current surroundings.
Sorry you are having marriage issues, but don't let whatever is going on bring down your self esteem. You are working hard, you're posting when you are in doubt, those are strong principles.
Have a lovely holiday!
Holidays are a toughie, that's for sure, on the way to sobriety.
Please hold strong, it's just another obstacle that, once got over, will make you realize how much this hard work is so worth it!
You will indeed so much appreciate with all your senses, all the wonderful things there are to enjoy in your current surroundings.
Sorry you are having marriage issues, but don't let whatever is going on bring down your self esteem. You are working hard, you're posting when you are in doubt, those are strong principles.
Have a lovely holiday!
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Good for you Mags. I just met my husband at a new neighborhood bar and the thought hit me, just one beer (!!!!). I had to go through the same thought process in a matter of seconds, and visualize where that would lead. Not any where good. Hope you have lots of fun in the sun!
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if alcoholic ?? self deception can be a killer
Originally Posted by Mags1 
Since yesterday I've convinced myself I'm in control now, I've done it, I can socialise, just like millions of other people without falling over, puking, memory loss and embarrassment.
I've done it, I've recovered and can go out on holiday and have a glass or too
self deception can be a killer
M-Bob
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