Day 9. How do I keep my guard up?
 

I am feeling good. Headaches are gone and I have no cravings. Still feel kind of strange mentally though. But no big deal.

I can picture a great life without drinking. I only worry that I could forget what it does to me, and I may underestimate it one day and fall in the rabbit hole again. I'm afraid of feeling confident and comfortable. Where do you find the balance between stress and comfort zone?

I'm afraid of that also. I just keep moving on with the one day at a time thingy. I don't know how else to do it. I wish there was something magical someone would come up with.

Staying connected to SR helped remind me that I had a problem and it was an ongoing one.

Apart from that, remember - any thought you have that drinking is a good idea is a lie.

That's a good baseline to start from.

It won't always be a day to day struggle Raider. That's when the magic happens :)

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Just remember JS, how you feel now
vs when you were drinking. You have
to remain vigilant. What brought me
down continuously was after a short
period of not drinking, I thought that
I could just drink a couple of beers,
No such thing. Every time that I quit
and start again, I would return to
the same drinking routine, sometimes
even worse. Like I mentioned in a
previous post, I feel like hell while
recovering, but I feel 100% better
than when I was on the sauce.

Hang in there JS.

I agree with the statement of taking it one day at a time. It does become easier the longer I stay sober. I was unfortunate and did fall in to the rabbit hole after many years being clean and sober. It took me 8 years until I became sober again. I lost ALOT during those 8 years. Perhaps practicing being grateful for what you have would help.

The magic is that we are sober and clean today

I love committing every day to 24 hours in the 24 hour club (under newcomer support threads). I'm not struggling right now so I feel confident while making my commitment--but still it makes sure I reaffirm everyday and don't just forget to think about sobriety.

''The magic is that we are sober and clean today''

YES!

Coming here reminds me of where I came from... and how I can go back there again if I drink. :(