My old ugly ego has resurfaced
My old ugly ego has resurfaced
I'm on day 9 sober
Yesterday I was in the gym, after a looong time
Today I feel quite fresh and good.. no depression
But I also don't like myself
I feel superior/arrogant, too snappy, too fast, selfish, bad karma
I don't like this. I want to humble and nice. Or do I?
Perhaps drinking dulled those sides of me
And maybe I got to used to the misery that drinking brought?
Yesterday I was in the gym, after a looong time
Today I feel quite fresh and good.. no depression
But I also don't like myself
I feel superior/arrogant, too snappy, too fast, selfish, bad karma
I don't like this. I want to humble and nice. Or do I?
Perhaps drinking dulled those sides of me
And maybe I got to used to the misery that drinking brought?
Glad you are not having a low day I suppose a higher day feels just as awful.
Congrats on Day9!
But I'd rather feel like this, and work on it, than drink it "away" (drinking solves nothing).
Thanks
Hey Mak. I noticed when I was in rehab that the guys who came in behind me seemed to be bouncing off the walls in the first few weeks…really manic. I had one guy who had me cornered and wouldn't stop talking. I avoided him big time. A week later I ran into him and was like "oh no, send up the flare gun, someone save me". Shocker, he was this really calm, sweet guy. I could not believe the difference.
And then I noticed that it seemed to be a pattern. I wouldn't worry too much about it, enjoy feeling like Adonis at the gym.
And then I noticed that it seemed to be a pattern. I wouldn't worry too much about it, enjoy feeling like Adonis at the gym.
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