Day 1 again for me
 

So this is it. All the alcohol is gone out of my house. I am not buying any more and I have told my husband to not get me any more either (because he would always give in to my pleading SO easily). I'm actually getting a new cat today so I'm hoping that he'll be able to distract me from the cravings and bad mood that always come with Day 1.

This is my... fifth attempt at sobriety within the past year. Praying that this time will be the last.

Good luck, anewpage.

THanks... I am also seriously considering AA this time, since my other attempts obviously haven't worked, I need something extra.

AA is a great idea. I found it invaluable. It's worth a try, right? I do hope it works for you. You never have to drink again.

the important thing is you are still trying. It's a tough road but you certainly have company, good luck

Good luck....new chapter! :)

Well, it's 12:30pm and the cravings are coming on strong. Trying to ignore the alcoholic voice in my head but it's getting louder. Thankfully, there is no alcohol available for me, and I have no way of getting any either. It's just exhausting having this battle in my head against myself ALL the time. :(

Hi anewpage...can you stay busy, physically active, cleaning something, listening to music and working?

You can do this! Get through the seconds, minutes, an hour and then a second hour. Keep it simpler for today?

Yes, those urges are so tiring. Just don't worry about later in the day, try taking the day in small parts, like I won't drink for the next 2 hours, then renew the commitment. Do whatever it takes to put off that first drink, read around here. Read a book or whatever, watch a movie, do some chore, whatever puts off the drink. All sorts of support groups out there that work for many. Take care

Turning it into a battle is optional. Try observing it for a while. Sometimes I close my eyes and breathe deeply and contemplate my urge to drink.

Look, there's an urge. I wonder what brought that on. I wonder how long it will decide to stay here. I wonder when it will figure out that it is wasting its time.

It takes a little practice, but you can be an observer of your own emotions.

Best of Luck on Your Journey! :ring

good to here of your new found strength and resolve.

Perhaps try to find a meeting ASAP if you can get to one. AA is a good start. It will get you out of your comfort zone at least.

I think the new cat will bid a great distraction to help take your mind off alcohol.

If you learned at least one lesson each time you attempted in the past and use them to your advantage then this time you should be much better equipped to do this.

Oh yes.. the lesson I learned each time is that the inner alcoholic voice is a LIAR. Every time it told me that "just one drink" would make me feel better, and each time one drink led to one bottle of vodka, and the result for me was guilt, self hatred and physical self harm (when I get really drunk, I get disgusted with myself and cut).

So this afternoon I have kept myself busy with the new cat, and I've done a lot of cleaning. It keeps my mind busy and it's productive. Win win situation, right?!

I'm also focusing my mind on the weight I will lose. ALcohol made me gain at least 25 lbs in the past couple of years.

I wish you the best :)

Hi anewpage - welcome back :)

Yeah I really urge you to think about new things to add to whatever you've been doing.

If you keep going back to drinking I think it makes sense to refine your personal programme.

Why not join the Class of May support thread (also in this forum) as one extra element? :)

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Welcome back to SR, anewpage!

A sober life is really worth the effort it takes to get it. :)

Anewpage,

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Don't look back.......... that's not the way you're going.

We're doing it with you.

Anewpage, you can do it, rootin for ya. :egypt:

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Happy you are back. You seem determined to kick this to the curb, I am proud of you. We all are!