Makrellen

Edit: Ok the title is a bit overstating.. but I can't edit it

Last drink was this sunday, after a 3-day binge

Writing a list of benefits by not drinking, and negative things about drinking

Today I feel somewhat ok.. tiny bit of hope. At least I'm not as suicidal depressed as usual after binges
But I'm also very restless, agitated, irritable, and my mood is rocking up, down, left, right.. laughing, crying, anger-bursts
I guess all the different shades of the ego returns to the surface

This is normal?
When will I feel a bit better, you think?

biminiblue

Very normal. I bounced around like that for five or six days. Then it was better, but recovery takes time, and I'm not used to feelings. Many times in the last two months I've said, "So. Many. Emotions." Life is emotional and there is no escaping that - nor should any of us want to: we have thinking brains, it's what they do.

I did very well as long as I watched carefully over the HALT things. (Hungry Angry Lonely Tired) - as long as I took care to not become too much of any of those things, I was pretty well.

Makrellen

The thought that, soon comes weekend and I cannot drink as usual, is hard to realise
But I'm not going to drink. I don't need that destructive, depressing $h*t

Makrellen

Yes. I guess I was drinking to specifically escape it all
There are so many unresolved issues in my head, its overwhelming. Alcohol "helped" me, untill next day, then it was double up on issues

LoftyIdeals

I can relate Makrellen. I'm in a Day 3 fog, and have been wandering around to do everything, but doing nothing. ADD at its worst.