Day 6...and a compliment?
Day 6...and a compliment?
So this is day 6 for me. I'm starting to feel physically better, though exhaustion is setting in overall. Some of the fuzzy brain is clearing, but a lot still remains. I've been spending a lot of time in these forums and in some AA chat rooms. I've been reading the "Big Book."
Some interesting things have happened. Before when I tried to quit, I would feel very isolated. Just this morning as I was taking a shower I felt that it wasn't just me dealing with this problem. When I thought about taking a drink and whether or not it was even possible for me to be sober for life (before I couldn't even fathom this), I felt this sense of community, of millions more just like me who were all fighting the same battle, and winning. I wasn't alone at all, and I could draw on their strength to follow the same path. I realize these "aha" moments aren't always so clear when in the grips of temptation, but I figure it is good to really hold on to them as much as possible.
So, last night my mother (who lives with us) said to me, "You've been very good, haven't you? You haven't had a drink all week." She was getting tipsy as she said this as she is a nightly drinker, as I have always been. I was snuggled up to my husband on the sofa at the time and he just gave me a little hug of acknowledgement. I don't actually remember what I said, but I didn't say anything big. It just makes me realize that others have definitely noticed. Maybe my mother feels trapped too? We'll see. Maybe hubs doesn't want to make a big deal about it since usually it didn't last. I don't know. However, it was a good feeling overall, and I felt really good about myself.
Though it also says something loud and clear. If you're not an alcoholic and you don't drink for five days, nobody has to mention how "good" you're being, with an element of surprise in their voice. That speaks volumes.
Thanks for all the continued support!
Some interesting things have happened. Before when I tried to quit, I would feel very isolated. Just this morning as I was taking a shower I felt that it wasn't just me dealing with this problem. When I thought about taking a drink and whether or not it was even possible for me to be sober for life (before I couldn't even fathom this), I felt this sense of community, of millions more just like me who were all fighting the same battle, and winning. I wasn't alone at all, and I could draw on their strength to follow the same path. I realize these "aha" moments aren't always so clear when in the grips of temptation, but I figure it is good to really hold on to them as much as possible.
So, last night my mother (who lives with us) said to me, "You've been very good, haven't you? You haven't had a drink all week." She was getting tipsy as she said this as she is a nightly drinker, as I have always been. I was snuggled up to my husband on the sofa at the time and he just gave me a little hug of acknowledgement. I don't actually remember what I said, but I didn't say anything big. It just makes me realize that others have definitely noticed. Maybe my mother feels trapped too? We'll see. Maybe hubs doesn't want to make a big deal about it since usually it didn't last. I don't know. However, it was a good feeling overall, and I felt really good about myself.
Though it also says something loud and clear. If you're not an alcoholic and you don't drink for five days, nobody has to mention how "good" you're being, with an element of surprise in their voice. That speaks volumes.
Thanks for all the continued support!
[QUOTE=Sobertaurus; If you're not an alcoholic and you don't drink for five days, nobody has to mention how "good" you're being, with an element of surprise in their voice. That speaks volumes.
Thanks for all the continued support![/QUOTE]
Congrats ST!
That last paragraph just says it all doesn't it? I'm experiencing the same sort of thing this past week. Hard to believe how much difference a week can make.
Thanks for all the continued support![/QUOTE]
Congrats ST!
That last paragraph just says it all doesn't it? I'm experiencing the same sort of thing this past week. Hard to believe how much difference a week can make.
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