Hi and welcome kellygurl1711
That doesn't sound like a great situation for you or your family. I'm assuming there's reasons why you can't move out?
If you're stuck with this domestic situation I think you're really going to have to beef up your support. you'll certainly find a lot here - post as much as you need to.
I'm not sure whether you think AA is a 'bunch of bull' or your addiction does - what do you think KellyGurl?