40days sober blues Let me start by saying i live in a full house. I'm in my room i was in high school. Have two families living here. My mom, sister, and i; and then my brother, his wife, and their two small girls. Its very frustrating because my mom and sister-in-law do not get along and fight all the time. So my full house is a high stress environment and a drinking trigger for me. Needless to say, i am having a very hard time keeping my temptations at bay. I haven't relapsed yet but there's a high chance i could. My brother is a self medicator with weed and booze. Every night he gets drunk and i sit there and oogle at his pretty beers and wine. I've been to ten aa meetings in the past week which are also my first aa meetings ever. I have mixed emotions about them. I feel like the meetings help but then i also feel like it's a bunch of bull. Shoo I'm playing tug of war in my head because i want to drink soo bad but then i remember the bad things that happened when i drank and i don't want those things in my life. Maybe i need to see a psychologist. *Humph* |
Have you considered counseling with an addiction specialist? I see a counselor and it's been a tremendous help to me in all aspects of my life.:) |
Hi and welcome kellygurl1711 :) That doesn't sound like a great situation for you or your family. I'm assuming there's reasons why you can't move out? If you're stuck with this domestic situation I think you're really going to have to beef up your support. you'll certainly find a lot here - post as much as you need to. I'm not sure whether you think AA is a 'bunch of bull' or your addiction does - what do you think KellyGurl? D |
You're doing amazing for being in such a bad environment for stress. Imagine how great you'll be doing once you're in a positive atmosphere. The previous posters covered my other questions I was going to ask, but I just wanted to encourage you to acknowledge to yourself how strong you've been through this whole period and just ride it out as you have been. |
meetings only help us find a sponsor or a sponsee the steps are the program of real recovery :) |
Finding people who are just like us has made a difference for me in my recovery. That is why I like SR. Face to face meetings are also really helpful for some people. I'm glad you are reaching out here on SR! It is tough growing up in a family where there is so much using going on. Hang strong! |
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