Relapse and burned bridges
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Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: Ottawa, Canada
Posts: 5,827
Hey Patman,
Awesome support thread.
Sorry to hear about your recent addiction struggles. Sometimes its not easy to see the way forward out of our troubles. No matter though, the journey can continue learning from our experiences as we go. Myself, it took me years of off and on again drinking to finally get things figured out for a sober lifestyle. Living sober was just so much different then my past living as a drunk - I had to re-learn everything. Not always easy.
Reaching out for others to help me help myself was what finally worked for me, and continues to work well for me. Talking things over with recovering and recovered alcoholics / addicts brought everything into clarity for me, and with this I could make better decisions and have more purpose in my actions taken to keep sober.
When we decide we our alone with our troubles, we aren't doing ourselves any favors. Of course we have to own our own troubles and responsibilities for sure, but we don't have to re-invent the wheel either to get our lives sober and enjoyable - we can take the counsel of others without shame or embarrassment - for none of us are without our own situations, challenges, setbacks, and accomplishments too!!
Take it easy, Patman. Yeah, as TomSteve said, Ottawa is just across the Ottawa River from Gatineau, as you know.
Awesome support thread.
Sorry to hear about your recent addiction struggles. Sometimes its not easy to see the way forward out of our troubles. No matter though, the journey can continue learning from our experiences as we go. Myself, it took me years of off and on again drinking to finally get things figured out for a sober lifestyle. Living sober was just so much different then my past living as a drunk - I had to re-learn everything. Not always easy.
Reaching out for others to help me help myself was what finally worked for me, and continues to work well for me. Talking things over with recovering and recovered alcoholics / addicts brought everything into clarity for me, and with this I could make better decisions and have more purpose in my actions taken to keep sober.
When we decide we our alone with our troubles, we aren't doing ourselves any favors. Of course we have to own our own troubles and responsibilities for sure, but we don't have to re-invent the wheel either to get our lives sober and enjoyable - we can take the counsel of others without shame or embarrassment - for none of us are without our own situations, challenges, setbacks, and accomplishments too!!
Take it easy, Patman. Yeah, as TomSteve said, Ottawa is just across the Ottawa River from Gatineau, as you know.
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Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: Newcastle
Posts: 908
Hey hope you're doing okay mate.
I did the same thing over the weekend. Get back posting buddy you can never burn our bridges at SR, you are so helpful to so many here!
Were both veterans at this now, time to commit long term!
I did the same thing over the weekend. Get back posting buddy you can never burn our bridges at SR, you are so helpful to so many here!
Were both veterans at this now, time to commit long term!
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Location: PA
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ThePatMan: "All I can say without crumbling is that I am sorry for trying to help newcomers when I cant hold my own **** in one piece."
I'm sorry to say that that is a load of crap! 'Trying' being the operative word there. You obviously have no idea how much you help. Or at least for now you are just down on yourself. Your contributions have helped very much. I'm sure I'm not the only one who has benefited from your posts. AND, the fact that you came back to relate your current slip is of benefit to all - especially me. Every day I start to think I got this licked I come on here and get a stern reminder that I am still too new to even think I can just mosey along without continued work. Thanks for that.
Also, you have a good heart and good intentions. You are a giver. It's time to give back to yourself - again. We are all pulling for you. If you can't get to a meeting just drop on and say hello - at the very least.
Wishing you well my friend. Stay strong.
I'm sorry to say that that is a load of crap! 'Trying' being the operative word there. You obviously have no idea how much you help. Or at least for now you are just down on yourself. Your contributions have helped very much. I'm sure I'm not the only one who has benefited from your posts. AND, the fact that you came back to relate your current slip is of benefit to all - especially me. Every day I start to think I got this licked I come on here and get a stern reminder that I am still too new to even think I can just mosey along without continued work. Thanks for that.
Also, you have a good heart and good intentions. You are a giver. It's time to give back to yourself - again. We are all pulling for you. If you can't get to a meeting just drop on and say hello - at the very least.
Wishing you well my friend. Stay strong.
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: Gatineau, QC, CA
Posts: 5,100
Hello everyone, thanks for all the support a inspiring posts.
Sorry for the late post, I was lurking in shame.
I underestimated my addiction. Like Dee nicely put it it's relentless. I need to start walking the talk. I don't have the energy left to relapse and go trough detox. I know what the next few days will be like.
I have no leave balances left at work. To those considering intern rehab and have the possibility, go for it. I can't afford leave without pay or I loose my house, only thing that provides me with some stability.
Gathering the last drops of courage I have left to face another detox.
It's not over until it's over someone wise once said on SR. I always used anger as my push forward trigger, this time I will use hope and faith.
And so it is
Sorry for the late post, I was lurking in shame.
I underestimated my addiction. Like Dee nicely put it it's relentless. I need to start walking the talk. I don't have the energy left to relapse and go trough detox. I know what the next few days will be like.
I have no leave balances left at work. To those considering intern rehab and have the possibility, go for it. I can't afford leave without pay or I loose my house, only thing that provides me with some stability.
Gathering the last drops of courage I have left to face another detox.
It's not over until it's over someone wise once said on SR. I always used anger as my push forward trigger, this time I will use hope and faith.
And so it is
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Join Date: Nov 2012
Posts: 970
"It's not over until it's over someone wise once said on SR. I always used anger as my push forward trigger, this time I will use hope and faith."
LOVE your new approach, patman - think you'll enjoy it a whole lot more and bring you much greater success and inner peace ! Really happy to see you back !
LOVE your new approach, patman - think you'll enjoy it a whole lot more and bring you much greater success and inner peace ! Really happy to see you back !
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Georgia
Posts: 3,062
I've hung out with my addiction enough to learn how absolutely cunning, sneaky,uncaring,and completely insane it is. Clearly you are learning about yours. Stay strong. Eventually you will figure this out. You seem like good people. Stay open to new possibilities.
Keeping it simple!
Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Surrey, BC
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Originally Posted by sugarbear1 
Stick here and come to the chat room some time!
Don't ever feel you have to lurk in shame, you do not Patman. We have all been there. We are all here for each other. That is what makes being an alcoholic so special, we all have a kinship
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