Accidental Lent
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Accidental Lent
Hi everyone,
I had a slip last night, after 38 days. I remember quitting right around mardi gras, and it seems that Easter is this Sunday. Is that the window for lent? I realized in the middle of drinking last night that I had basically done Lent, and I hadn't planned for my dry spell to be temporary...
Anyway, I slipped, and I'm just posting it here, not totally sure why but I think it's in the interest of just being outspoken about it and sharing.
I was SD (still drunk) all day at work, and I felt so stupid and old. Old is NOT stupid, I just felt both of those things.
I'm so tired. I can't imagine I'll sleep well tonight. But I'm trying to carry on as normal (sober, productive...bla bla)
Ilya
I had a slip last night, after 38 days. I remember quitting right around mardi gras, and it seems that Easter is this Sunday. Is that the window for lent? I realized in the middle of drinking last night that I had basically done Lent, and I hadn't planned for my dry spell to be temporary...
Anyway, I slipped, and I'm just posting it here, not totally sure why but I think it's in the interest of just being outspoken about it and sharing.
I was SD (still drunk) all day at work, and I felt so stupid and old. Old is NOT stupid, I just felt both of those things.
I'm so tired. I can't imagine I'll sleep well tonight. But I'm trying to carry on as normal (sober, productive...bla bla)
Ilya
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[QUOTE=Ilya;4598536]
I realized in the middle of drinking last night that I had basically done Lent, and I hadn't planned for my dry spell to be temporary."
The same thing would happen to me. Where were the memories of the hurt and humiliation of just a few weeks ago? Why didn't they come to mind and protect me?
At certain times was without defence against the first drink. How to find that defence is the question. Self knowledge and memory proved totally unreliable.
I realized in the middle of drinking last night that I had basically done Lent, and I hadn't planned for my dry spell to be temporary."
The same thing would happen to me. Where were the memories of the hurt and humiliation of just a few weeks ago? Why didn't they come to mind and protect me?
At certain times was without defence against the first drink. How to find that defence is the question. Self knowledge and memory proved totally unreliable.
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