Originally Posted by Maximilian85

Hi SolitaryThinker, I was in the exact same boat as you not long ago, I'm 28 too and had been drinking for years - like yourself I had taken quite a lot of LSD in the past and thought that it was that had screwed my brain up as I couldn't believe that alcohol withdrawal could be so terrifyingly bad but it really is, I though I was going mad too with hours and hours of anxiety a day lasting a few weeks. I'm at a month sober now and the anxiety has pretty much gone but I still have quite a bit of depression. My advice is, you're not going mad, everyday will get slightly better but you need to do things to take your mind off the withdrawals, I used some herbal supplements like valerian root and 5-HTP which really helped my anxiety and depression. Tell all your close friends and family what you are going through, they will understand and will help you (my anxiety led me to falsely think that my friends and fam would disown me, but they didn't, that provided a great mental relief). Exercise is key, swimming I felt was the best but running and weightlifting were good in the early stages when I was too scared to go to the gym. Oh yeah last thing, get a load of chamomile tea in, really helped me calm down and relax

Originally Posted by Adnamaeel

Solitary, I've read through your thread, and don't have much to add that I haven't already said in the other one, but I did want to address your concerns over damaging your brain with acid. Don't worry about it. You didn't damage yourself. In my younger days, it wasn't all that unusual for me to drink an entire vial of LSD for breakfast. I have taken shockingly huge quantities of acid, and my brain never stopped working the way it was supposed to, though my perspective was expanded. I even went on to graduate from college with honors. You are going to be ok, you just need to get to the other side of this to see it. I have confidence in you.

Originally Posted by Adnamaeel

Also, I noticed someone recommended valerian root to you. Valerian is a natural source for the alkaloids that they synthesize to make Valium, and it IS addictive. Definitely use caution with it.

Originally Posted by SolitaryThinker

True, haven't tried that, just the 5htp and John's. Yea it was bad last night cause things started bending a bit and like dark shadows in the perefial vision was creeping me out. I knew what it was from and was able to tell myself that. But I wasn't expecting/or looking for that last night. Bad timing, it was def amplified by my state of peril I was in already. My one and only bad time, it was really dirty Dutch, and I was in a warehouse party. Peoples stomachs were pouring blackness onto the floor, almost splashing like think ink or oil, and it was everywhere, I tried to ask people for help and it was poring from their eyes and mouths, fixed objects were sliding all over the place on the floor. I had enough expierence under my belt that I was just walking around chain smoking and drinking booze/water till the intensity wore off, but it still sticks in my head, no colors, no laughs, no body effects. Darkness in it's purest form, everywhere. I don't know if it was my frame of mind that night, or how dirty it was, or both, but last night those visuals were slowly creeping back in, and that's why I was freaking the **** out...i couldent get it into words as it was happening...