not2late

It's because of Deeker I'm back. Thank you Deeker for your message. I have pretty much given up and given in but I'm going to try again. I need your help. I need to post here when I leave work. This is when I have a problem. I go by the poison store before i go home. Help me not do that. My job is stressfull but...that's no excuse. I'm in a bad place and I'm scared. I can drink 375ml of vodka and hardly feel it. I don't know why I bother. It's 230 am est USA and I'm wide awake with another hard day ahead of me. I came here and had 2 months sober. Went on a business trip where every person was drinking something at dinner. I figured wine wouldn't hurt. Not really a wine drinker....wrong. the beginning of the end. Now it's worse than before. I really wish I could go away to a recovery place and be away from it all for awhile but its not possible with my job. To those who are able to do that..you are lucky to have that opportunity. Not all if us do. This is a wicked burden and I'm tired. Thank you all for being here.

Dee74

I'm glad you're back Peaches

230am is probably not the best time to think about the future, but maybe it's time to think about what you used for you recovery this time, and what other things you might be able to add to that now?

D

Pedro1234

Welcome back peaches58. I am really glad that you are trying again. We all know how hard it is but we must keep trying Sending positive vibes your way.

roguedreams

Hi Peaches! Welcome back!!! post, post, post. When you feel like it, post. When you don't feel like it, post.

Hang in there.

not2late

Thank you all. Dee..I really appreciate all you do. Pedro..thanks. its helps knowing others know how hard it is. I'm in a world..surroundings..where drinking is normal and ok. How am I ever going to deal with that?

not2late

Hi rogue..posting helped last time. I will try again.

Jeni26

Glad you're back peaches.

It IS possible to give up drinking when you're surrounded by it. My husband drank, all my family drank...and all our friends drank.

Not easy, but possible. Get some rest now, then come back in the morning and work out a plan. You can totally do this....

not2late

Thanks Jeni. Gonna try to sleep now. Will need you guys tomorrow. Bless you all.

not2late

One more thing...remember in the old movies everyone was smoking? You rarely see that anymore. But they are still drinking. I think drinking should be just as taboo. They stopped advertising cigarettes on TV but not alcohol.

afloatsober

You can do this Peaches.
It's a hell of a job sometimes but it only needs to be done once more!
Be looking out for you.
G

not2late

I hate this suffering...only you guys understand.

not2late

Thanks afloat..I'm gonna need you all. It's out if control.

deeker

Yay!! peaches58 is back!!



I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw Dear deeker.lol

Welcome back, you are in the right place and we are all here for you
No Matter What!

We do understand.

not2late

Wow!!! Hugs to you deeker. Gonna need all you guys. It's gotten really bad.

deeker

Yah I know, it doesn't get any better out there. But I want you to know that as bad as
you are feeling right now, that you are helping a lot of people including me.

I need to hear that it is not getting any better out there. I am sorry that you had to
do the research but you really have helped me.

Now tomorrow's a new day. Take it 24 hours at a time. You may want to go into a
detox for a few days. Sounds like large quantities.

Can you take a Friday and a Monday off. Maybe you can get into a detox and they
can help you through the rough days.

toddle118

peachie you seem to be popular, that must mean something x

deeker

I just sent you a pm, we will talk tomorrow nitey nite Get some rest

toddle118

Deeker gone bed, but Dee is also a hero yes? yup katy, he good one

not2late

Dee is my hero too..yes!!! Up now 530 am. This is my day one. I'm always ok in the am but crunch time is 530pm est Usa when I get off work. That's when I will need you guys. Always..but then more then ever.

goose333

Peaches,
After work is tough for me too. Long day, tired, very easy to do. There are so many bars & stores on every route home for me that I just can't avoid driving by. One thing I have found that if I ignore the urge after about an hour or so it passes and I find I feel better and don't need the drink.
Make a plan for the drive home to keep you from giving in. Here's some suggestions:

1. Can you plan a route that doesn't go by any bad places?
2. Be strong for only the 2 minutes it takes to drive by each place. Just 2 minutes.
3. Instead of driving home, do something else. Go to the gym. Shopping. A park.
4. Know that if you wait long enough the need will pass. Choose to wait.

Goose