Day 8
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Day 8
I'm relieved to have made it over my first full week in a long time, but I could not have ever done this alone.
I was lining things up to make for supper tonight, digging around in my pantry, and there it was looking me in the face - an empty beer can I "hid" over a couple weeks ago. I took a hold of it, and said to myself "how sad is this". I put it in our recycling bin and continued on with the task at hand.
Hiding - I was "good" at hiding my drinking. Nothing I'm proud of, but I did it. And there wasn't a sole out there that really knew. Even my dearest friend was surprised when I told her I was back drinking heavily again.
The games we play to maintain alcoholism. If only we can work that hard on being sober. The key is "can" - we can. We. We need each other, we need support and we need to listen to those that have been through this. They are what helped provide the guidance, knowledge, and strength I needed to make it to day 8 and to look forward to joining AA, something I would never consider in the past.
Hugs to all. Be well!
I was lining things up to make for supper tonight, digging around in my pantry, and there it was looking me in the face - an empty beer can I "hid" over a couple weeks ago. I took a hold of it, and said to myself "how sad is this". I put it in our recycling bin and continued on with the task at hand.
Hiding - I was "good" at hiding my drinking. Nothing I'm proud of, but I did it. And there wasn't a sole out there that really knew. Even my dearest friend was surprised when I told her I was back drinking heavily again.
The games we play to maintain alcoholism. If only we can work that hard on being sober. The key is "can" - we can. We. We need each other, we need support and we need to listen to those that have been through this. They are what helped provide the guidance, knowledge, and strength I needed to make it to day 8 and to look forward to joining AA, something I would never consider in the past.
Hugs to all. Be well!
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congrats on 8 days Marjoram. I dread I will be finding things for a while too. I discovered another empty today when out in the garden. They seem to be everywhere.
Keep up the good work. Good luck on your journey forward.
Keep up the good work. Good luck on your journey forward.
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I really appreciate the support - I know you understand the importance of it especially in these early days. I have a meeting for beginners to AA that is this Saturday at 10:00 a.m. It's the only one I have an opportunity to go to this week. It's not that I won't take the time, but it's 40 minutes from home. But, as nervous as I may be to a certain degree (I cry when I'm happy, I cry at a beautiful sunset, I cry when I hit a bird with my car going down the road...so you know what I'll be doing Saturday), I know this is good. And I know you will all be there with me in my heart, so it really means the world to me.
If I hit any bumps between now and then, yes I will be here typing.
If I hit any bumps between now and then, yes I will be here typing.
Keep on keepin' on. Keeping it simple!
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Good for you! Your attitude will definitely take you far. Opening up your mind to do things you didn't do before is a good thing. I had to go outside of my comfort zone in order to start recovery.
Congrats on day 8!
Congrats on day 8!
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Originally Posted by Marjoram 
I'm relieved to have made it over my first full week in a long time, but I could not have ever done this alone.
I was lining things up to make for supper tonight, digging around in my pantry, and there it was looking me in the face - an empty beer can I "hid" over a couple weeks ago. I took a hold of it, and said to myself "how sad is this". I put it in our recycling bin and continued on with the task at hand.
Hiding - I was "good" at hiding my drinking. Nothing I'm proud of, but I did it. And there wasn't a sole out there that really knew. Even my dearest friend was surprised when I told her I was back drinking heavily again.
The games we play to maintain alcoholism. If only we can work that hard on being sober. The key is "can" - we can. We. We need each other, we need support and we need to listen to those that have been through this. They are what helped provide the guidance, knowledge, and strength I needed to make it to day 8 and to look forward to joining AA, something I would never consider in the past.
Hugs to all. Be well!
I was lining things up to make for supper tonight, digging around in my pantry, and there it was looking me in the face - an empty beer can I "hid" over a couple weeks ago. I took a hold of it, and said to myself "how sad is this". I put it in our recycling bin and continued on with the task at hand.
Hiding - I was "good" at hiding my drinking. Nothing I'm proud of, but I did it. And there wasn't a sole out there that really knew. Even my dearest friend was surprised when I told her I was back drinking heavily again.
The games we play to maintain alcoholism. If only we can work that hard on being sober. The key is "can" - we can. We. We need each other, we need support and we need to listen to those that have been through this. They are what helped provide the guidance, knowledge, and strength I needed to make it to day 8 and to look forward to joining AA, something I would never consider in the past.
Hugs to all. Be well!
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