DramaStudent

So, I almost knew it would happen. I hit my 3 month mark, was quite proud, but 2 days later it was my birthday. And, well, I made the conscious decision to drink telling myself it would just be the once... and of course, it wasn't. I'm not back up to the level I was- I've been drunk 4 times since March 12th so not at the previous stage, but I can see it slipping further. Already it's gone from weekly, to now twice weekly and if this carries on it'll be thrice then... well. We all know what then.

The last time I quite was because I did something ridiculous and humiliating and was easy to quit. Now though, since I've not done anything daft my brain is going- "See, you're fine. Not hurting anyone"... well I am. I'm hurting myself.

So, back to Day 1. Currently rather hung over so at least I wont drink today, and have no money till Thursday either so at least 3 days but in all honesty its going to be hard when it gets to Thursday, it will be a real fight. Might give my housemate my bank card so I can't access money

I have certainly not missed the hangovers!

Mountainmanbob

if alcoholic probably best to get back on the sober horse

my relapses is always taught me something

MM

SoberLeigh

Welcome, DramaStudent.

Anna

Yes, it's the hurting ourselves that needs to be acknowledged before we can begin to rebuild. I think we need to learn to value ourselves so that drinking is no longer an option for us. I'm glad you posted.

BruceSA

Hello, DS,

Do we really need something ridiculous and humiliation to prompt us into sobriety?

I would venture no, we need to decide for ourselves that we want to quit. Nobody else except ourselves can make that decision?

When you get to Thursday, look at the cash and think "I can spend this on something much more rewarding and - ultimately less costly - than booze".

Strength to you, DS,

Bruce.


If you're hurting yourself, it's time to stop, isn't it? 3 months is a fantastic achievement. Well done and please build on that.

Holli

You still have 3 months sober to fall back on, which is a big deal. Just don't quit quitting.

doggonecarl

No almost about it.

I hope you find a way to take drinking completely out of the equation. For good. Because if you leave the door cracked, for even one drink, your addiction comes charging back in.

Thepatman

SorryAbout your slip, you can to back to where you left off.

Slipped myself Saturday, the guilt that comes with the 1 hour of "fun" is simply not worth.

We got this, I'm with you ;-)

KateL

Yep. Just jump back on the horse and plod on. If only you knew the ferking day I have had much love xxxxxxxxxxxx

Dee74

Welcome back DramaStudent

Will you be doing anything different with your recovery programme this time?

S