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After 12 years of sobriety and a 2 year relapse I find myself hardly thinking about drinking. I like reading SR posts, but find that it is the one thing that makes me think about drinking. does anyone else experience this? I am at the point where I can put this behind me and move forward without support. I did have a very successful 12 years without support. Any thoughts?

I don't have issues here so much as I can read what I want to and leave the rest alone. I do identify in a way as I found AA meetings began to be counterproductive for me and cause more drinking thinking than they solved after a while. I am not downing AA, but after a few hundred or a thousand meetings I found them to be counter productive for myself or at least the ones I was attending.

What I have found that works for me is just to fully engage life. I set goals and it gives me something to achieve. Me not being able to successfully drink is a give so I seek to do other things.

Yes, I can understand how discussing drinking all the time or being in a forum and doing so may cause issues. For me however, I find this forum helps or at least if offers me some grounding and I find it interesting. We are all much the same and a lot different. :)

Do what works for you. But something didn't work that led you to a relapse.
After just over a hundred meetings, I come out of them with more negative feelings all the time. I quit drinking because I knew I had to. Going to meetings was part of "my plan" as determined by someone else.
I still get something from them, but lately it's become nauseating hearing the same thing from the same people again and again and again and...
The next time someone tells me I have to get down on my knees I'm going to lose it. I am NOT powerless.

Well done Bton.

Do what works for you I guess :)
Do you have other support besides SR?

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