Thinking of going to a meeting today
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Thinking of going to a meeting today
I've got 12 days. I'm feeling a lot better and SR is helping. I wasn't ready to go to a meeting until today. There's one at noon I can make. I think I'll go. It can't hurt. It's been a long time since I have been.
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Originally Posted by PamperingMe 
I've got 12 days. I'm feeling a lot better and SR is helping. I wasn't ready to go to a meeting until today. There's one at noon I can make. I think I'll go. It can't hurt. It's been a long time since I have been.
Tell ya what - I'll go if you do!
Let's do it. Nooner.
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ME TOO!!
Today wound up being a 4th step meeting. A lot of good reflections. My own sharing was my realization that part of my having gotten 'stuck' on the 4th step in the past is directly related to not having fully done the first step.
I have a sponsor now who is working me through a written 1st step workbook that's about 25 pages long. It's taking quite a while, I'm chipping away at it bit by bit. But what it's doing is forcing a structured way of really taking a hard, HONEST look at the trajectory of my life and the role alcohol has played in it throughout. Rather than just saying "yeah, sure... my life is unmanageable and I'm powerless over alchohol" - I am actively exploring and taking a hard look at just HOW unmanageable life was. And for how long. And just how damn powerless I really was.
And in doing it that way, already I am lining up the 4th step in ways I never did before because as I go though this thorough look at my own powerlessness and my own life's unmanageability - I am seeing specific things that stand out for me as 4th step material.
I think that by the time I make it up to the 4th step, it will seem a lot less daunting this time around.
I also found myself realizing in that meeting that the resentment and bitterness I'm carrying around toward my ex and her ongoing crazy behavior toward me is unhealthy to my sobriety. As much as it is a struggle to try and change my thinking toward her - I started realizing today that if I can't shift my thoughts toward empathy and forgiveness and at least giving it a really honest try to think and hope positive things for her - then I will be carrying around a risk to my own sobriety and a hole in my own emotional health.
Alcoholics Anonymous; I often think it should just be called "Humans Anonymous"....
thanks for the inspiration to get to a meeting today. It was a great way to celebrate 100 days.
Today wound up being a 4th step meeting. A lot of good reflections. My own sharing was my realization that part of my having gotten 'stuck' on the 4th step in the past is directly related to not having fully done the first step.
I have a sponsor now who is working me through a written 1st step workbook that's about 25 pages long. It's taking quite a while, I'm chipping away at it bit by bit. But what it's doing is forcing a structured way of really taking a hard, HONEST look at the trajectory of my life and the role alcohol has played in it throughout. Rather than just saying "yeah, sure... my life is unmanageable and I'm powerless over alchohol" - I am actively exploring and taking a hard look at just HOW unmanageable life was. And for how long. And just how damn powerless I really was.
And in doing it that way, already I am lining up the 4th step in ways I never did before because as I go though this thorough look at my own powerlessness and my own life's unmanageability - I am seeing specific things that stand out for me as 4th step material.
I think that by the time I make it up to the 4th step, it will seem a lot less daunting this time around.
I also found myself realizing in that meeting that the resentment and bitterness I'm carrying around toward my ex and her ongoing crazy behavior toward me is unhealthy to my sobriety. As much as it is a struggle to try and change my thinking toward her - I started realizing today that if I can't shift my thoughts toward empathy and forgiveness and at least giving it a really honest try to think and hope positive things for her - then I will be carrying around a risk to my own sobriety and a hole in my own emotional health.
Alcoholics Anonymous; I often think it should just be called "Humans Anonymous"....
thanks for the inspiration to get to a meeting today. It was a great way to celebrate 100 days.
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good on ya for goin! now at the next meeting, get phone numbers of people that were there 2 years ago. if they were sober then and still sober now, they must be doin something that works and be willing to help ya.
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Originally Posted by tomsteve
good on ya for goin! now at the next meeting, get phone numbers of people that were there 2 years ago. if they were sober then and still sober now, they must be doin something that works and be willing to help ya.
got a big book?
got a big book?
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